Worried

[screamtobeheard]

I'm posting this here because I'm not really sure where else to put it. But basically I'm kinda worried. I'm a sophomore in high school and for about two years now I've hated my life. That's not a big concern, I can deal with that. What concerns me is that recently I've started feeling...crazy, I guess. I've always gone through periods when I didn't want to do anything except cry. And that's all I did. But now I have them worse because I usually can't cry, so I SI because I need to feel something. And recently I've had to use a hell of a lot of self control to keep from "falling" down a flight of steps.

Then there's the part of me that hates myself intensely. And it's making me eat less and less and obsess about it. I don't think it's an eating disorder, but I know it can get worse and that it probably will.

[TakeMyHand]

Well I'm not sure what to say other than the usual thing: Find something to care about. Figure out what it is you don't like in your life, then work on eliminating it and finding something else to think about.

[Fruit_Tart.]

well if its a major problem now and your really really worried and want to get better, i think you should see like some kind of doctor (sorry idk wat the names of them)...

[CuriousDestruction]

well, here's what i know. you aren't crazy. crazy people don't think they are crazy. they think they are getting saner. you sound like you are going through pretty bad depression right now and should probably see a therapist or psychiatrist. i hope things improve hun. PM me if you wanna talk.

[screamtobeheard]

Thanks, everyone.

And I wish I could see someone because I'm honestly kind of afraid of myself. And I'd just like to be normal again. But I can't tell my parents about anything because they'd just be really angry and probably make things worse. :/