munchausen
March 6th, 2010, 11:16 AM
A couple of years ago I was having a particularly bad night and there was a gang of guys about my age at the time doing the usual gang stuff, you know shouting abuse at passers by, throwing stones at cars that kind of thing. I wandered by on the other side of the road and one of them shouted something at me, I think it was about my hair or something but like I said I was really ticked off so instead of doing what common sense would have dictated and continuing on my not so merry way I crossed the road and headed straight for them. Now I'll just say I was over-confident I'd just got my first black belt and I was by no means small for my age, as I headed over a few of the guys ran for it saying I was mental or something so they were down to four. One of them started walking towards me and put his hand behind his back so before he had a chance to pull his knife I kicked him in the solar-plexus and he crumbled, (obviously no-one's getting up after that.) I don't remember much of the rest of it but I ended up down to one guy who had pulled a knife from somewhere, most people who practice martial arts will tell you after months of sparring with people when you get into a fight with someone untrained they seem like they're moving in slo-mo so he threw the knife out, I'd have easily been able to grab his arm before it connected but I just plain didn't want to. Instead I threw out my right hand onto the tip of the blade. That hurt like hell, it must have been a good quality knife because it went straight in one side out of the other. So basically it wasn't an accident. (as for the guy I hit him on the bridge of the nose after "grabbing" the knife and he was out of the fight.) After that I've been getting into fights constantly knowing that I will get hurt as opposed to I might get hurt. It's not been too bad for the area I live in, some streets have been completely cleared of gangs at night and other people are sticking up for themselves too and it's very rare to hear that anyone has been attacked. So I was wondering seeing as I go out with the expressed intent of being hurt in some way or another would that count as self harm? So far IRL people seem at about a 60/40 divide in favor of it not being self harm.
This started because I came across an article saying, "Behaviours that usually fall outside the boundaries of self-harm may indeed represent self-harm if performed with explicit intent to cause tissue damage." So I was wondering what you guys think on the subject. Also if you need an opinion on anything you think may be a grey area of self harm then you could post them here.
This started because I came across an article saying, "Behaviours that usually fall outside the boundaries of self-harm may indeed represent self-harm if performed with explicit intent to cause tissue damage." So I was wondering what you guys think on the subject. Also if you need an opinion on anything you think may be a grey area of self harm then you could post them here.