cannot be bothered anymore.

[1_21Guns]

my mood just keeps crashing, then going high again, then crashing. although its pretty much stuck low for the past couple of hours. even if i have a reason to be feel abit better, i just don't, or if i do, it never lasts long.
i don't want to live like this anymore, earlier i decided i was going to cut later. then later thought to myself, natalie no, wtf are you playing at.
i'm blaming myself for various things that probably aren't my fault as such.
i guess i'm just tired and bored. bored of living.
every days just the same old story, drag yourself up, get through school, go home, die of boredom, over think things, either stay up because i cant sleep, or go to sleep far to early because i'm exausted.
i just actually can't be bothered anymore. whats the point? i haven't a clue who i can trust anymore, i don't even know who i am anymore. i swear i'm hearing and seeing things all the time. i just dunno anymore. whats the point in being alive when all you want to do is die?

[CuriousDestruction]

natalie, c'mon. we have our WHOLE LIVES ahead of us. things will get better in time, whether it's 2moro or in the next decade. i know how it feels, to drag yourself from one place to the next, knowing that nothing will change. only it will change. it's a natural force in nature. i know you are feeling down, and i want you to msg me when you are on okay?

[Aspiringanonymous]

An important part of the experience of living, is confrontation with the concept of death and non-existence. It can show us much insight, as long as we are able to discern them amidst the emotional chaos.

But life is much more than just one experience - and life, in our current physical forms anyhow, is so immensely short. Why not take advantage of what we have been given? To exist through the consciousness of a human being - even if it isn't all that pleasant most of the time. We have the rest of eternity to be dead, there's no rush at all to get there.

Live, because life is interesting enough to warrant a few decades of our time. Even if you're not able to see it now, there is a world beyond the confines of your current state - and one day, one way or another, you will get there. You've just got to be patient, and be strong, so that you are not first swept away by the current of negative emotions.

Life is for living, and it would be quite unfortunate to waste that precious opportunity. It does get more interesting at some point, but you've got to be open to the changes that would bring it about.

May you find comfort through the darkness.

[TakeMyHand]

Find something to care about. It sounds like you need either a hobby that gets you outside or, well, someone. Is there anyone you're romantically involved with? It could help, especially if they understand you and are willing to help you. (Yes that should sound familiar from one of my threads, and no I'm trying to suggest myself, haha, we live on opposite sides of the Atlantic ;) ) I'm saying you probably need to find someone who can be there for you in-person who can get you out and doing things.

[Watchfulness]

Look at the mirror.

[NamelessRomantic]

The point?Just being there.Next time a friend needs you,help him/her.After that,amidst the inevitable satisfaction of the good deed you will find the answer to your question by yourself.