i feel so alone :(

[Asylum]

so this week i've felt more alone then ever... family has been fighitng a lot.... also using that sarcastc tone with me... last night it was 10:30 my curfew is 11... and they took my computer and cell phone away sayin i needed to rest up for tomorrow..... i don't go to slep until like at least 1 or 2. so i was bored listening to music... crying a lot... cuz after i questioned why they were taking it away, because i;'m like hey... my curfew isn't up[ it says here in the contract you wrote i have until 11... dad told me to shut up... then he goes on and on that i need sleep, and his tone that he used with me was unnecisary... then mom yelled at me for wanting to stay up... its not that i want to... i can't help not sleeping... seiorusly!? like did i really deserve that no...... then my boyfried desides like 2 ays ago we need a break, so i'm like arghhh right now... i keep breaking down, yesterday i ended up crying in school, luckily only my friend Grace saw me... i never cry in front of people,.... i know its weird but... i just don't... unless i'm exremely comfortable wiht htem... so anyway the boyfriend who broke up with me... he was like the person i talk to every night... in school he was realyl the only one i felt ok with nad talking to... now he is gone... and gosh... i feel so gosh darn aone.. like argh... and i have to see him all wekkend today and yesterday with the play.... the people i'm not close to have been really supportive though... and i thank them a lot.. and one of my best friends Benny, who doens't go to my school has been there for me too, and i really appreaciate it, yes i know i need to try to get closer to the peoplel i m not close to, and i'm trying... its just awkward with them becaus they are girls, and i have nothing wrong with girls... but thye make me more paranoid, and i feel anxious... probably because no girl has ever been nice to me... like... when they are, they just end up hurting me in the end... plus i'm socially awkward unless i'm really comortable with them... sorry for the rant....

[georgiamay]

don't worry i know how you feel. i know it seems really terrible now, like you just can't go on, but you just need to push through it, and things should get better. talk to that friend benny about how you feel, and just let it all out to him. if he was supportive then, he'll be supportive now probably. don't be afraid to cry when you're with him.

i hope this does help in some way, PM me if you need to talk :)

[Asylum]

thanx Georgia i definately will, i have been tlaking to him a lot about it, i'm just afraid i'll bug him...
thank you very much, :)

[NamelessRomantic]

In a moment like this,the best thing to do is just talk to a friend.Any friend.If they are a real friend,they will listen and help you overcome your anguish.If there is noone to talk to,something else you can do is just do something you like...I,for instance,do something as simple as turn on some music and sing.Or play the guitar.Whatever,as long as it`s something you enjoy and will make you feel a bit better.
If not worried about your figure,you can also eat some hocolate.Sugar makes you feel better,and it`s not that bad for you.

Feel free to PM.

[Asylum]

thank you Carnation

[Ryhanna]

You're not alone, Yuki.
Remember that. No matter how bad things get you've always got us at VT.
Your one of us, we have to look out for you :)
Feel free to pm me if you want someone to talk to, apparently I'm really good at listening and helping with problems. My girlfriend said that to me yesterday haha :)

[Asylum]

aww thank you Ryan :) <3

[Jackel]

Dont warry yuki: you're not the only one, (if that makes you feel better...somehow).

I cant sleep, I want to, but I, like, go to bed a 9.30-10.00, and I don't sleep till, like, 11.00-3.00! It's so madning! *This is madness! Madness? THIS-IS-SPARTA!!! LOL!*

But anyway, I come alive when I'm on the pc, or riting a story, or something, maybe even when I'm reading or something.

Sure, I only have ONE true friend, and he helps me a lot.
Im lucky to have him, and he's lucky to have me. I guess that's what people do:

Loner meets loner, giant befriends midget, geek meets jock, (no, These are just examples: neither of us play football).

Jsut be glad you've got looks, (NOT HITING ON YOU! just being nice), and be glad you've got benny. *smile*, be happy...sort of.

Jack

[Asylum]

Thank you Jack, your comment seemed to put a smile on my face hehe. i'm glad you've got one true friend, that is always good.
very true. thanx? lolz... :) thank you Jack

[Scarface]

I'm very sorry to hear about all of your issues. I go through quite a lot myself and i can relate on certain levels except my parents don't really give a shit. Just know that if you ever need someone to talk to that isn't a female that I'll be here for you. I know what your going through and you have my support. Keep your head up :) i hope everything gets better soon.

[Kaya]

If you ever need to talk, PM me. I hope things work out.