Where do I go from here?

[METALLICA]

So, life hasn't exactly been treating me well lately. To be honest, I just want to get it over with, but I know that's not an option so I'm not going to even go there. But some things have been going on lately, I don't know what I did to deserve any of this... See, all of my close friends have moved away. And they're all together, 700 miles away, living life happily... I'm still stuck here with almost no friends, no money, a senile grandmother, and a mother with several chronic illnesses. I have quite a large family outside of my house but they're all cold, ignorant, and heartless people that I am ashamed to be related to... And more recently, I have realized that my dreams in life (to become a musician, actually become big, and spread all the good music to the world) is never going to happen.

With all of this going on, I really don't know where to go anymore. Suicide is not something I would do (although in the past I have considered it). Should I keep trying to do what I want to do or should I just give up and wing it for the rest of my life? I just feel like I have nothing to live for at the moment.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Hun fight for what you want in life. never give up ever. im glad you would never attempt suicide. hugs. you keep fighting Hun and you can always count on vt for support. my family is the same way and the people here helped me a lot with that. good luck Hun

[that guy]

bro calm down u have your whole life ahead of you live it and go to school and get A JOB U LOVE BESIDES MUSIC

[CuriousDestruction]

you just gotta soldier on dude. things get better in time. i know it seems like life sucks now, but you have the rest of life to live and enjoy. if you don't like your life now, change it. do a sport, drop a sport, do a club, drop a club, make a friend, make more friends. life is a strange thing, ever-changing.