Obscene Eyedeas
March 1st, 2010, 08:40 PM
I want to make a thread about cutting and its effects. i had all fancy jargon and statistics in it. while that seemed good i just thought it was too stiff and informal i couldn't relate to it not on a deep level. so i scrapped it and wrote this from the heart.
what is cutting?
it is many things but not any one of them is good. it can be a release for some, a way to vent things that they can't handle or can't talk about. it can help them to suppress emotions they can't deal with. it can be for that feeling you get when you cut that moment of bliss. it can be a moment where you just lose yourself in the pain. it can be the pain of something unspeakably destructive that has happened to them. for me it was all of them. plus the fear of trying to give up and thinking all the time that i would fail thinking i wasn't good enough.
what are its effects?
it leaves scars that last a lifetime constant reminders of you at your most vulnerable and darkest place. it can lead to mental health issues that last for life. it can cause depression to become worse. it can cause friends and family pain. it can destroy your self confidence and self worth
personal note
god my friends have helped me a lot. cutting dominated my life for over half of it. it took away so many things from me. it has caused me so much pain. denied me so many simple pleasures because of scars. it caused so much pain for me. but worst of all it hurt my friends watching me do it. it hurt them bad and i was so blind to that. its made me so emotional recently that i snapped at so many people for reasons they didn't deserve, i struggle still, i may even cut again but this is a time for me when i know i can quit with my friends help.
but not cutting is such an amazing feeling
i hope that people here can take some hope from this and that it helps
what is cutting?
it is many things but not any one of them is good. it can be a release for some, a way to vent things that they can't handle or can't talk about. it can help them to suppress emotions they can't deal with. it can be for that feeling you get when you cut that moment of bliss. it can be a moment where you just lose yourself in the pain. it can be the pain of something unspeakably destructive that has happened to them. for me it was all of them. plus the fear of trying to give up and thinking all the time that i would fail thinking i wasn't good enough.
what are its effects?
it leaves scars that last a lifetime constant reminders of you at your most vulnerable and darkest place. it can lead to mental health issues that last for life. it can cause depression to become worse. it can cause friends and family pain. it can destroy your self confidence and self worth
personal note
god my friends have helped me a lot. cutting dominated my life for over half of it. it took away so many things from me. it has caused me so much pain. denied me so many simple pleasures because of scars. it caused so much pain for me. but worst of all it hurt my friends watching me do it. it hurt them bad and i was so blind to that. its made me so emotional recently that i snapped at so many people for reasons they didn't deserve, i struggle still, i may even cut again but this is a time for me when i know i can quit with my friends help.
but not cutting is such an amazing feeling
i hope that people here can take some hope from this and that it helps