WTF is wrong with me?

[DarkWingedAngel]

Well for some reason ive been really really really really down for about 4 almost 5 days. I tried to kill myself 4 days ago by cutting my neck, I fainted because of blood loss, then woke up witch stitches in my neck and in a hospital bed. I have no idea what's wrong, promicded to him that I wouldn't try to kill myself, but I did.
GRRRRRRR I just wish I was fucking dead.

[KChiChi]

NO YOU DON"T!!! life is the most precious thing like... EVER!!

[Fiction]

Had you been depressed before? Did the hospital offer any after support after your suicide attempt because they should do and if not ask for it? Pm me if you want to talk

[DarkWingedAngel]

ive been depressed for years and years
just never been this low
i mean ive tried to kill myself before but that was years ago

[BeautifulDisaster]

I gotta sleep now but I'll PM you in the morning.

xx

[DarkWingedAngel]

okay

[zer0]

I'm not saying that what u did was amazing but u really have courage. i've been thinking to commit suicide but at the same time it freaks me out.

:eek:

[DrkZ90]

Sorry to hear that... what's wrong? what happened that pushed you over to attempt to take your life?

If you want to talk, I'm here for you... I don't know how much I can be of help, but I will do my best to be always there for you if you need me... you seem like a nice guy, you don't deserve to feel like this.

[foreverjd14]

I think you shouldn't kill yourself or say things like you wish you were dead. I personally see a therapist and its really helpful. I've never tried to actually kill myself or think of way to actually do it but i have thought about it once or twice. But it honestly does help and i think you should see one even once and if you like it you can see them again and if not you don't have to go back or you can go to someone else. If you ever want to talk you can pm me and ill talk to you about anything ill listen :)

[BeautifulDisaster]

I have PM'd you, I hope I have helped in some way.

Good luck.
x

[DarkWingedAngel]

well see guys this is the thing
I am seeing help
I have
For years now
it is NOT helping
they make me talk about my problems witch just makes me wanna die more

[BeautifulDisaster]

You need to talk about problems, to work through them and get on with life, that's how it works...

[DarkWingedAngel]

well it just makes me more depressed everytime i go, not helping me

[BeautifulDisaster]

You can't keep running from your problems, won't help anything.

[Triceratops]

well it just makes me more depressed everytime i go, not helping me

The only thing that's stopping you from getting on the right track is yourself here. You are wholly refusing help which is just like an unyielding barrier towards recovery.

[MysticalBurrito]

The only thing that's stopping you from getting on the right track is yourself here. You are wholly refusing help which is just like an unyielding barrier towards recovery.

This.

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[MysticalBurrito]

People can help you but you have to want the help, and somewhere inbetween you have to meet them.

[CuriousDestruction]

well, i'm sorry you are feeling so down but i'm glad you didn't succeed in killing yourself. that is not the answer. maybe a therapist is not the way to go. maybe you just need to write or draw. there's no pressure to talk about your problems. just express your feelings and emotions. another idea is to do something like sports, take your mind off everything. i know you have probably heard these suggestions before and if you wanna talk more about what to do feel free to PM me.

[ShatteredWings]

I think you're not giving them a chance.

Like, yes, I understand having to remember shit is painful, but if you can't do that in a more controled way (like, therapy, adur) it comes back in flashbacks even when you're doing better.

Please... give it a chance. You haven't yet, maybe it JUST MIGHT HELP.
:hug3:

[Lazy Procrastinator]

When i'm feeling depressed or down, or unwilling to contribute to the world, I think of what I may accomplish in the future, I have many dreams and ideas of depressive futures also, but the ones of helping others become clear in my mind when I just sit down for an hour and really think and plan out what I can do. I believe that in some way or form I will be able to contribute to the less fortunate, or make a difference in the area of drug addictions - so that's what I do, i set myself to study the emotions of humans and the chemistry of drugs, I give myself goals, because without goals life is pointless.

I'm not a hippy who says that life should be lived like every day is your last, that is total bullshit and don't ever take that quote seriously because it is misleading. At the moment I am trying to figure out my own life, but I love studying the emotions of other people, I just find it fascinating (can't go into depth here, too hard because it boggles my own mind just thinking about it).

Find a hobby, find a path for the future, because without paths you will stray; you will stray to the abyss where only resent and loneliness lies. Give yourself a chance, and don't let those depressive emotions build up and cascade on your life. Go see a psychiatrist to teach you ways of controlling these emotions, personally I found the ideas my psychiatrist gave me were pointless, and did not help me with my depressive emotions and fits of rage and sleepiness (yes i'm very weird, have anxiety issues too) - but what really helped me was when I spoke to a young man about goals like i mentioned before, he opened my eyes to the possibilities such simple things can do, I now study every night for at least 1-2 hours and it makes me feel good for accomplishing something. The study of human emotions makes me link connections with my own emotions, and understand the world around me with a clear insight to human reactions and problems, I am still very new to the concept but I find it fascinating nevertheless.

I hope my ideas help you consider some options like goal making, but if there is one thing that goal making teaches you - it's DISCIPLINE, one of the best things you will ever have if sustained, discipline will encourage emotions like belief in yourself and create logical thought processes in your mind to help you with day to day tasks as well as your depressive state of mind.