i cant take it anymore!!

[georgiamay]

i'm not sure if this thread is better placed somewhere else, so tell me if it is...

basically, i cant win. no matter how hard i try, something goes wrong, and big surprise, its all my fault.

Most of the time, its at home. i have a conversation with my dad, and whenever i say ANYTHING, i need to change my entire personality. i know i can be argumentative, but they take it too far, and i know that. my step-mum said to me that i put that washing maching on a too low setting, but i know for a fact that i didn't. i know i put it on 1000 spin speed, and she said it was on 600, and when i said i put it on 1000, she looked at me like i had just told her to piss off, and was cold towards me for the rest of the night. This might seem a stupid thing to get pissed off about, but it happens ALL THE TIME! she gets home from work, and i try and start a conversation with her, and she doesnt want to know. then she has a go at me for not socialising with her and my dad. When i told them about people bullying me at school, they said it was my fault for not being...i dont really know, they said it was my fault people bully me because 1. i'm over-sensitive, and 2. i'm me.
They're both always telling me to change who i am, but i have tried, and i can't. I know i cant. i cant stand the way that i'm ALWAYS in the wrong! i dont think i'm a particularly bad person.

my step-dad constantly calls me ugly, and says i'm rude and obnoxious whenever i stand up for myself, and its almost like he controls my mum, and there's nothing i can do about it!

all of this is seriously getting to me, and in the beginning of next month, i have two 1 year death anniversaries, which i'm sure are just going to tip me over the edge. i've been there before and i didnt like it. i dont want to go back there again.

sorry i went on a bit and ranted, i just needed to let it out before i did something really stupid.

[Mr. Smithers]

I'm very sorry that all that is happening.

I would find the time to sit down with your step mom or father and talk to them about it. You can always try that. Maybe if you have a calm quiet conversation with them, you guys can come up with solutions as to why you argue and fight all the time.

You can always come here for help. I hope you don't do something bad. Don't think like that.

[Fiction]

I get the same from my parents- the delibratley annoying me and getting stressed with me and then having a go at me for not talking to them. I tend to just stay away from them in my room nowa days. Idk if thats the best way but its how i deal with it.

[Aspiringanonymous]

I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to share this with us.

Our immediate living environment has a direct impact on our long-term state of being.

While we may not always be in an able position to change that environment for the better, don't ever forget that one day, it will be possible; so long as you stay strong and prevail through these current circumstances.

Sure, it may appear that you always 'lose' to these people in your life, but all is not lost if you strive to win the internal struggle. Why bother living up to their standards when it isn't possible, anyway? Learn, rather, to accept that some things are unnecessary - it's how you feel about yourself, minus all persuasion from the external world, that makes the most impact in the end.

Let them talk, if they wish to, since it is not in your power to prevent them from doing so; amidst their accusations, silently rejoice in the fact that you are beginning to reassert your own power. You have already mentioned not necessarily agreeing with everything they say - that is the first step - hold on to that with confidence.

All the best to you.

[derkderpderp]

Hey?
Let it all out before you talk to your parents/guardians.
If you feel like crying then cry,if you feel like shouting do so. Personally i lock myself in my room and cover my head with my blanket and scream and scream until i feel better,it helps people to vent.
Just get most of the inital bad feeling out of the way and then talk to them,and dont change who you are,make them listen to you,just try not to do it forcefully.
This sucks, make them understand how you feel.
Pm me if you ever want to talk.
= }

[CuriousDestruction]

im sorry bout your 'rents. my dad is the same way. every single damn thing he's on my case. you just can't let them get to you. you gotta push through it, get away from them. remember that there is an entire world away from them waiting for you to explore after you get away from them. Im certainly not telling you to run away, but if you can deal with them a little longer you will be free.

[Scarface]

im really sorry to hear about your mom and your relationship. with my dad when comes home from he is not only in a shitty mood, but hes drunk. My advice to you is maybe your mom has a stressful job and wants to be left alone when she gets home. i don't think that's anything that you did. it gives them NO excuse to call you names or tell you that you should change because your born who you are and they should accept you not add insult to injury. i hope this helps if you need someone to talk to i'm very knowledgeable in situations as such. Pm me