why would you think off thatt..

[NeWb TeWb]

right i dont know if this is reaaly stupid...


my grandad past away and like 3 days later the song my homies dead and gone dead and gone came on , i started singing my grandads dead and gone dead and gone , whilst my grandma was in the car... i always say to people are i rapped your dead nan shat in her mouth and stuff like that , im soo sad.


like there will be some women who is in a wheelchair , and ill turn round and say to my mates , wow i bet shes got a right sweaty pussy bet she got loads of cheese and HIVim gunna lick her out later pop her warts and get the skin stuck inbetween my teeth , and its it not occasionally , everyday i say something like that at least 5 times a lesson.

and now i dont even have to think for something disgusting i can just say anything off the top of my head...


now i dont want this to offend anyone but this is the stuff that i say all the time


i dug your dead nan up and dioreord in her mouth rapped her then got her ripped up off took the insides out and but my shit in um and drank it then i rapped you dead grandad and you little sister.


i mean thats what i say its f***ing stupid i think i need help , but maybe i just have no sense of guiltyness?

[INFERNO]

Have you ever tried adhering to the old adage, think before you speak? If you blurt out stuff, then just try not blurting out such stuff because sooner or later, if it hasn't happened already, someone will give you quite a few hits or kicks. You do have a sense of guilt because a) you admit to feeling sad about what you say and b) you're seeking help for it. What is the purpose of saying or even thinking such things? Do you friends encourage it in some way or what drives it?

[BeautifulDisaster]

Okay, all of that has disgusted me, but seeing as you're asking for help, I'm glad you feel something and know this is very wrong.

I'd recommend seeing a professional, you sound very impulsive, so in regards to that, it could be a symptom of a disorder.

In the future, try and put yourself in the person's position.

I am going to have to be using a wheelchair soon, and if someone was saying that about me behind my back(or to my face), it'd cause severe distress(probably even enough to never go out again because of it), which is probably what that old lady would feel too, and to the other people you make fun of behind their back.

I'm glad you recognize it's wrong, if you didn't, chances of helping this would be slim to none, but since you know it's wrong, you can work with that.

I hope you get help.

[NeWb TeWb]

Mhmm , yeah well i dont have a sense of guilt , and trust me know - one will smack me , well not at this time in my life... , im only saying something and talking about it because i know its wrong , but i dont feel like its wrong , and i used to be able to put myself in other peoples shoes , and i still can , but i cant think about feeling how they feel because ive been called so much over the years , nothing really gets to me :S , and i dont feel guilty or sad , i just know its sad... thanks for replys though :)

[INFERNO]

Mhmm , yeah well i dont have a sense of guilt , and trust me know - one will smack me , well not at this time in my life... , im only saying something and talking about it because i know its wrong , but i dont feel like its wrong , and i used to be able to put myself in other peoples shoes , and i still can , but i cant think about feeling how they feel because ive been called so much over the years , nothing really gets to me :S , and i dont feel guilty or sad , i just know its sad... thanks for replys though :)

If you know it's wrong and you're asking for help, then it sounds very much like you do feel guilty. Was your motive for doing these things because people insulted you so much in the past that now you feel empowered by saying those same things? I agree with Beautiful Disaster that it does show a probable issue with impulse control.

[NeWb TeWb]

Well , my dad used to hit me , i dont see him anymore , and i have anger problems , but i never get angry tbh , only with my parents , but people dont insult me , its just when i dont like someone for saying somethig , this fat girl said she shagged my brother , shes 11 , and i just call her for saying that.. but i know its wrong , but i tell people who's nans are actually dead that i raped her , and i dont feel like are thats harsh , my mates tell me im harsh thats why im saying something cus i dont feel like im being harsh

[INFERNO]

Well , my dad used to hit me , i dont see him anymore , and i have anger problems , but i never get angry tbh , only with my parents , but people dont insult me , its just when i dont like someone for saying somethig , this fat girl said she shagged my brother , shes 11 , and i just call her for saying that.. but i know its wrong , but i tell people who's nans are actually dead that i raped her , and i dont feel like are thats harsh , my mates tell me im harsh thats why im saying something cus i dont feel like im being harsh

I'm trying to wrap my head around this and I think I'm getting some understanding of what you're saying. The thing that keeps boggling me is when you say something such as you raped a dead person's grandmother and similar things, generally that implies anger and is said when one is angry. If you claim you're not angry when you say such things and don't consider it harsh, then three things confuse me: 1) Why do you say such things if you're not angry, 2) What would constitute being harsh and 3) If you admit to having anger problems, then you must get angry otherwise it makes no sense to say you have anger problems. I'm not trying to debate you here but rather trying to wrap my head around your situation because not all of it is making that much sense as it seems like you're dancing away from why you actually say such things.

[NeWb TeWb]

It my be hard to understand , what i think is , im angry inside , but i dont know it , but i kinda of do know , but if someone said to me anything about anyone in my family , i wouldnt give 2 S***s , but if they said anything about my little brothers , i would stab them , like thinking about it i wanna F******* smack someone... :@ , but and what would constitute to being harsh , is me saying that to someone who grandma is dead , ( harsh meaning , sad , skank ,all that lot ) or it may have nothing to do with my anger maybe im just weird.

[NeWb TeWb]

and when i say i never get angry , i have learnt to try and calm it , and hide it , i will go sit somehwere , or have a fagg , or punch my walls and stuff...