guilt

[Asylum]

ok so i dont' see how i can stop feeling guilty.. i feel guilty when i eat.. like today i ate 2 meals a small pasta salad at lunch and dinner was salad and veggie stew.. i ate a small portions of the above and i feel guilty and i want to throw up... i'm trying to keep my food down this time... but idk if i can... its not like i odn't exercise this past week i've started a new routine... 100 sit ups consisting of 50 regular 50 backward, then i hold a half sit upfor 100 seconds so i shouldn't feel guilty i've also been dancing and runnign around a lot.. so it shouldn't be a problem... and what i do eat is healthy. i eat mostly fruits and veggies if anything. i try not to eat carbs.

[Katrina]

Feeling guilty is normal for a lot of women and men who are conscious about their weight and stuff. You should just eat what appeals to you when you are hungry, and with your working out routine, you sound really great and healthy! It's just important that you are healthy, and you sound like your health is ideal! Just don't obsess and stay healthy. You should be able to treat yourself to cheesecake now and then! :D

Hope this gives you something to think about!!

[munchausen]

Okay first off I know I'm being a hypocrite but you don't need to feel guilty about eating two portions of food in a day. As for the exercise routine, again being hypocritical, remember to have resting days you can exercise weeks on end and do more damage than good, your body needs time to recover. I'm like the opposite of you in my eating habits though I eat almost nothing but carbs, not the best idea it makes me really likely to go underweight again >.<

[Asylum]

yea... problem is i'm not healthy about it but i end up usualyl eating 1 meal a day, which consists of 4 crackers with nutella on them and an orange, and occasionaly if i feel really fat like today i'll make myself throw up... i know it causes body damage.. i'm cnsidered underwieght now.. .

[munchausen]

I know how hard it is to force yourself to eat when you feel like this, hell I had to be almost force fed for over a year but you have to start eating properly. Also wether you're aware or not your teachers will be monitoring you if you're underweight or loosing weight quite quickly so if your not careful they may intervene too.

[Asylum]

i don't want teachers to intervene that woulnd't be good...

[BuryYourFlame]

Have you told anyone about this? Maybe a parent or another trusted adult? As mentioned above teachers can also be a great resource, well...some at least. A lot of them care about you more than you know.

I greatly advise seeking help from at least one of those people. It will make things a lot easier if you can get proper help.

[Asylum]

my mom knows i don't eat.... she blames it on my old medicine for ADD, which that did get me to sotp eating, then well i created my own reasos when i was off it, ad when people ask... i usually use that as an excuse, oh i havne't been eating ever since i was on the meds, which is true. meds cause lose of appetite. dad is never around much to know when i eat and don't.. only for dinner,
people do notice at school so the above excuse is presented... isn't really an excuse its what hapened it was my meds at frst then it turned me into this eating disorder..
teachers nor students have ever seen me eat...
recently i've been eating lunch at school 4 crackers and te orange.. with coming home at play practice late i say i ate it at dinner time which is what i do..


i'd love to get hlep, but its sort of hat weird battle within me... no i don't want to get help, i want to be thin.... no get help your hurting yourself...
also i don't want to see a counsler or anything for this... been there done tat for other things... definately not for me... i'm hoping i get help soon tho.... i am supposidly seeing a psycologist soon...so i'll talk to er about this...