It ends today..

[Marcie]

As some of you may know, I am a self injurer. I've been doing so for about 1 year, 4 months, and 1 day. In that time I've accumulated numberless scars, and in looking back at my records, since April of last year I've been writing it down each time, I've noticed that the average of times I've cut/burned per week is around 3.71, we'll just round it to 4.
I've known for a very long time that Self injury is a foolish, selfish, harmful act.
In the beginning, I actually thought it was helping. Since then I've discover that, while it may have seemed to have a positive effect at the time, it really doesn't help at all, in fact, it only makes things worse.
Once you cut you're probably going to be carrying around this extra guilt for cutting because, at least for me, you know it's wrong. I've also realized that by cutting myself I'm not only hurting myself (both mentally and physically) I'm inadvertently hurting all those around me who care about me, and who Love me.
In the end my cutting has helped nothing, not in the least, and has only served to damage my relationships with others and to give my lifetime reminders of my foolishness.

Today I have resolved to end this. Today I'm stopping my habit of cutting myself. No longer will I pick of a razor and even think about slicing open my body. No more will I hold a match in my hand and use it for anything other than to light my candles. Today I start on a new path to a brighter future. (cliché!!!)
Today it ends.
It's over.


P.S. I am quite adamant in my decision and when I feel this way nothing at all can stop me from achieving my goal.

[Asylum]

Marcie i am very happy you feel this way :) i wish you luck,and you can PM me anytime ever. it'll be hard at first... but the key is to keep pushing, you have the will i can see it.. you can do this :) i'm happy you will not harm yourslef anymore

[Magus]

Alright! I am happy for you that you quit this act.

[Marcie]

Marcie i am very happy you feel this way :) i wish you luck,and you can PM me anytime ever. it'll be hard at first... but the key is to keep pushing, you have the will i can see it.. you can do this :) i'm happy you will not harm yourslef anymore

Thanks :-)

I'm 110% sure I'm not going to do it again.

[screamtobeheard]

That's so great! I'm happy for you! :)

[1_21Guns]

Marcie, i'm so glad you've seen this and are looking for a brighter future :)
I wish you the best of luck hun.
Never give up, you can get past it. :)

[Marcie]

Marcie, i'm so glad you've seen this and are looking for a brighter future :)
I wish you the best of luck hun.
Never give up, you can get past it. :)

Thanks, I'm hoping that I'm not going to fail at this :-)
so far I've really wanted to three times, but I haven't :D

[zacset]

Wow. This is pretty admirable... as others have said - i wish you the best of luck! :)

[HeroesAndCons]

(in peter griffins voice) proud of you

[songboy]

I ues to do it myself but its wrong to hurt yourself I am proud

[Marcie]

I ues to do it myself but its wrong to hurt yourself I am proud
(in peter griffins voice) proud of you

:D :D Thanks :-)

[Lemonlover934]

This is really great. Shows amazing strength. I wish you the best of luck and hope to soon be in a position where i can be as strong as you :) x

[kidkizzet]

I'm glad you're stopping, it takes a lot of strength to stop. I stopped cutting exactly a week ago and it's been hard because I get cravings. I find it so hard not to cut but I have a friend and she has helped and I would talk to her on MSN while I was cutting and after a while she said that she wouldn't say anything more about what I was doing because she said that whatever she said to me never got through and she said a few other things and I just gave up there and then. It's been a tough week but I promised I would try my hardest and so far I'm doing ok but I get mad cravings. Cutting's addictive but I'm glad that you are one of the people that are trying their best to stop it. I think it helps to have support from other people.

[dstnyisurs]

Oh Marcie! Yay! I hope you succeed, in fact I have complete faith that you will. Very well done to decide to stop!

[Marcie]

I'm glad you're stopping, it takes a lot of strength to stop. I stopped cutting exactly a week ago and it's been hard because I get cravings. I find it so hard not to cut but I have a friend and she has helped and I would talk to her on MSN while I was cutting and after a while she said that she wouldn't say anything more about what I was doing because she said that whatever she said to me never got through and she said a few other things and I just gave up there and then. It's been a tough week but I promised I would try my hardest and so far I'm doing ok but I get mad cravings. Cutting's addictive but I'm glad that you are one of the people that are trying their best to stop it. I think it helps to have support from other people.
Yes, it is very addictive.. and I do get insane cravings all the time (right now in fact) I'm glad you've also decided to stop :-)
If you need to talk to someone feel free to PM me, I'll usually reply within two hours.

Oh Marcie! Yay! I hope you succeed, in fact I have complete faith that you will. Very well done to decide to stop!
Let's hope your faith isn't misplace :-)

[Asylum]

i've decided to stop too :) no matter what happens its never worth it

[Marcie]

i've decided to stop too :) no matter what happens its never worth it

:D :D :D :D :D :D
YAY! I'm so proud of you :-)

[Spinder]

I'm so proud of you for making this decision! I've done it myself in the past, so I know how terribly addictive it can be, and how hard it can be to stop. Remember to stay strong, and know that there are always better alternatives to self injury, and that we are always here to help if you need us. PM if you need to talk at all :)

[ajayL]

im doing really well at moment but when i have a bad day thats when its hard.