f*ck.

[1_21Guns]

I keep falling asleep, my hand keeps going numb, and i have a couple of other medical issues.
My mum has suddenly decided after weeks of reluctance, that she will book me into the doctors, tomorrow.
Tbh, I think i know exactly what the sleeping is, i've practically given up on life again, not really for any reason either, i just can no longer be arsed with it.
So if i go, explain i have restless sleep, they'll either ask if i'm depressed, or some bizzare other thing like if i'm pregnant, concidering my mum came out with that one when i told her i felt sick.
I really don't wanna go, i know most people would jump at the chance, concidering its practically walking into on, but i'm not ready to get better. I don't want my family to know the truth, it'll just make things worse.
Plus if I tell them i've tried to kill myself before now, they'll probably have me on suicide watch which i don't want either.
I just don't know what to do, do I take the chance and maybe its nothing, or do I make up a million and one excuses to avoid it? argh..

[Harley Quinn]

You may have insomnia...it's a sleeping disorder. (I'm not a doctor so you'd have to ask about that)
The numb hand that's due to blood flow.
You don't have to tell them anything you don't want to.
They won't ask you if you're pregnant if you don't have regular morning sickness..
You can go into the doctor without your parents..and ask to keep it confidential.
They won't know anything..if you don't tell them, but I see this as an ideal opportunity to get yourself help. It may be for the best.
/post that's possibly confusing.

[1_21Guns]

You may have insomnia...it's a sleeping disorder. (I'm not a doctor so you'd have to ask about that)
The numb hand that's due to blood flow.
You don't have to tell them anything you don't want to.
They won't ask you if you're pregnant if you don't have regular morning sickness..
You can go into the doctor without your parents..and ask to keep it confidential.
They won't know anything..if you don't tell them, but I see this as an ideal opportunity to get yourself help. It may be for the best.
/post that's possibly confusing.

Yeah you're probably right, damned paranoia. Anyway.
I was wondering if I had that, guess we'll find out at some stage,
hm, i have no idea whats stopping the blood flow then.
and your right, maybe it would be the best thing to do, but i just don't know, i guess i'll just see if it comes up. i'm not sure what i want to do or not anymore. its just confusing, i feel like they'd be wasting thier time on me and i'm just not worth it.. arghh.

[Harley Quinn]

Yeah you're probably right, damned paranoia. Anyway.
I was wondering if I had that, guess we'll find out at some stage,
hm, i have no idea whats stopping the blood flow then.
and your right, maybe it would be the best thing to do, but i just don't know, i guess i'll just see if it comes up. i'm not sure what i want to do or not anymore. its just confusing, i feel like they'd be wasting thier time on me and i'm just not worth it.. arghh.

I get the numb hand a lot too, it's due to blood not circulating properly and this causes the numb feeling. I also have insomnia..they give you pills depending on the severity of the insomnia and stuff. It probably won't come up unless you make it noticable really, I say don't get so stressed out about this, think of it as a regular doctor appointment. You probably think it's a waste of their time because you've been put off by other people and you think they'll do it also.. I'm guessing. Talk to him/her about any problems you have a go from there. That's all you can really do, also try not to think to much and stress yourself out :P

[Bluearmy]

... but i'm not ready to get better. ....do I take the chance and maybe its nothing, or do I make up a million and one excuses to avoid it? argh..

Your not ready to get better.... whut? Whatever is preventing you from wanting to get better is a problem that needs to be dealt with immediately. You shouldn't try to avoid something like that just because you have other problems that you keep confidential.

Its not good that you undervalue yourself so. We are all humans, with to much potential this day an age just to waste it for nothing more than a pointless mix of problems.