Obscene Eyedeas
February 22nd, 2010, 01:18 PM
Not the hospital i cant go There with you. to watch your pretty smile fade your skin pale your peppyness fade. the smell of disinfectant, the grouchyness of the staff when you ask certain questions. you try and be so brave for everyone and you fool them you do you make them think that you Ard ok with this and i can't believe your strength to do this Hun. you turn to me when you get the chance and we cry together about what will happen, we pray for you as that's what you want, we joke together but the goodbyes Are always in tears. i love you Hun and ill always be here but i can't go see you in the hospital im not strong enough and the guilts killing me but im still here for you still love you. and while you show everyone how brave you Are you can still turn to me and we will have a good cry about it. god this is hurting so horribly but i won't let you see that. your everyone's rock at the moment so i will be yours Hun. you don't deserve this. i just feel so godDamn helpless i want so much to tell you it will be ok and to be able to fix the damage but i can't. im sorry