Total shit

[Silent]

Alright.........Lets just start off with im so pissed and depressed I cant think straight.

Ever since I moved to this fucking place I have had nothing but problems.....sure I have had the occasional fun, but thats rare. Im reall big into family....thats the main reason I moved here and the fact that we could no afford were we lived.

Alright I love my cousin...me and him are tight and Im nothing but nice to him. Now prolly 1 week after I got here he dawged the hell outa me cause his friends wanted to hang out or whatever.

It eventually got better and for the longest of time we were good. Now I have stated in previous posts on here that I would do fucking anything for him. Even give my damn life!

Recently.....Actually today.....School was out and we were waiting to leave from the final bell......One of his fucking druggie friends (think was high) turned and looked at him and said hey "Name" dont forget those lightbulbs.

If you dont know what that means look it up.

I recently wrote a really long poem for him but now im thinking about not giving it to him because he is dawgin big time.

After that I called his phone and he didnt answer......He rejected it....I called him again and said you need to fucking call me cause there is some shit we need to straighten out. Now of course he has not returned the call......so I drove by a place that I thought he would be....and he was there.....a fucking drug house......(friends house).

Im giving him till the end of this week to straighten his shit out or im fucking done.....I do nothing but be nice to him and give him my love and he treats me like this......I recently wrote him a really cool poem(what my friends tell me) and I was going to get it ingraved in glass and give it to him as a gift but now im think well never mind......I love him and Im always there for him and I thought he was for me but idk.....Maybe if I was dead I wouldnt have to worry about it anymore. Is it pathetic that most of my prayers are involving his and my relationship?

[Silent]

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[CuriousDestruction]

i know how you feel man. one of my best friends and i went through the same shit. it's not pathetic at all to have him in your thoughts and prayers. you love him and want the best for him i can see that. i think that you should give him the poem, show him you care about him. and i know you want him to drop the drugs, but you gotta be there for him no matter what. i'm sorry that you are watching your friend go through this. but if you love him as your friend, do what you need to in order to be there for him.

[Silent]

Ya Im just worried that he will tell me to fuck off cause of the drugs........

[Watchfulness]

It's his choice, we must not interfere with personal matters.

[Silent]

It's his choice, we must not interfere with personal matters.

How so?

[BuryYourFlame]

It's his choice, we must not interfere with personal matters.

"It's his choice" will only help with so much. If they are destroying their body with drugs then he should be able to tell his cousin that he is hurting because of it, not just let it go.

When you can get a hold of your cousin, talk to him seriously, but unaccusingly, about how his drugs habits are effecting you. Try to tell him what you have told us, maybe he will listen.

[Dreaming Cannibal]

"It's his choice" will only help with so much. If they are destroying their body with drugs then he should be able to tell his cousin that he is hurting because of it, not just let it go.

When you can get a hold of your cousin, talk to him seriously, but unaccusingly, about how his drugs habits are effecting you. Try to tell him what you have told us, maybe he will listen.

It is his choice, you as a person can only do so much and if your friend, or family is not willing to listen you gotta let em be.

But do talk to him.

[Gumleaf]

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