deranged fantasies

[thedudeman]

the fantasies that make me the most happy are when im running in the gym, and i imagine cutting up people i dont like and hanging their skin in my garage, i listen to songs about gruesome gore and rape and it just takes me away for long amounts of time, ive been like this for years, idk why, i imagine killing a lot of people i see, why is this? do i have anger issues? cuz i dont feel angry most of the time i feel very content and happy, and i still get these thoughts even though im on seroquel, but i feel guilt, so i dont think im a psycho or anything
i dont want to hurt anybody or get into fights, but at the same time i wanna cut up people

[BeautifulDisaster]

If you feel guilt, I doubt you'd ever do these things.

Have you told anyone about them?

[Obscene Eyedeas]

You need to tell a psychiatrist or a councillor about it you cant allow these type of things to persist

[Mattasaur94]

I know people like this,
I went through a stage simillar...
You don't WANT to hurt anyone, but, a part of you wants to completely obliterate the people you hate or complete randoms...
What I find helps is talking about it, if you get these feelings try and circulate your breathing, concentrate on something else. Picture yourself in a different situation, I'm not sure. whilst psychiatrists can help, sometimes it feels like other people don't understand you. Just find someone you can talk to, someone you can trust, and ask them for help.

=) There's nothing wrong with you, there's just a slught bit of evil in us all... wait... thats humanity. *sigh*
Just try and focus on a bright part of your life.

[DrPepperGuy]

these is very strange. do you play a lot of fighting or war games? Call of duty and GTA are main acuses of violent fantasies. If you do, you need to stop playing these games altogether to resist the fantasie cutting etc. once you have stoped dont go back on them because that urge might end up coming back. Also if you carry this on, you might not think it but you may (in later life) become very overpowered by these thoughts and may actualy think it is a dream but your doing it for real life. If you have any questions mate, just message me ;)

[thedudeman]

i dont play video games at all, i only watch comedy, although i find watching horrible twisted movies and listening to violent music is sometimes a must for me just to get these feelings out
i took lexapro a while back, and it put me into a manic state, which made me contemplate on killing my mother since she was the only person around, i got off the meds but that day i had super amounts of energy and the will to kill anyone in my path, ever since then its gotten worse, it was bad before that but that seemed to trigger something inside of me, and i cant unleash the anger because the anxiety disorder i have fills me with fear preventing me from speaking my mind so all the hate and anger is pushed way down deep in my psyche
i just dont want to get sent to prison for killing someone, the only people i wanna kill are bullies, they may walk out of the bully stage, but the damage they do on kids is irreperable, they dont deserve a second chance after scarring someone like that

[INFERNO]

Thoughts are thoughts and actions are actions, so if you don't act on them or simply try then there's no direct danger to others or yourself. Since you want to kill bullies, I'm going to assume you were bullied and so you sympathize with those who were bullied, while trying to reduce the bullying. I'd go even as far as saying that when you were bullied, you were humiliated and couldn't fight back but now that you're bigger and stronger, you can, however, there's nobody to direct the urges onto now.

If you tell a psychiatrist or psychologist, and that is an if because it's your decision to go, not mine, then as a rule of thumb, anytime someone comes in mentioning these symptoms puts the clinicians on guard that something severe or perhaps a certain paraphilia may be at play. As a consequence, you may be sent to other clinicians because of the increased risk of harming yourself and others, especially if you feel you cannot control these urges very well.

[foof1]

You need to tell a psychiatrist or a councillor about it you cant allow these type of things to persist
You should listen to him because it really can be dangerous to continue thinking about these things. But you should be fine if you know that you will never act on these feelings.

[DrPepperGuy]

i agree with the above comments. I find it wuite disturbing, sorry mate

[Watchfulness]

Disturbing imagery lies in my thoughts.
But I don't fantasize about infliction of pain over others...

[2D]

Who doesn't have disturbing thoughts? I do believe it's normal, your thouhts sound just a bit above that. Keep an eye on them and you should be good.