Alone

[Obscene Eyedeas]

So we stayed and looked around, so cold in a glass dome. I felt like i was underwater, everything flowing around me and rays of light rebounding by my feet. The air, I needed the air, suffocating i could not breathe. I reached for you but you were not there anymore. You were flowing away a smile so cruel i could not fathom the depths of your ire. Panicking, suffocating, alone. Alone and cold i had given up and yet i had not. The currents pulled at me to move on, faces twirled in front of me. The pain was too deep, my blood mixing with the water, there was no end to it. Then the true panic set in. I needed to surface, they were waiting for me but now i was being left behind. I struggle and scream and with one mighty heave i surface. Looking around the pool, i find i am alone. The cold air making me shiver, i look at my hand enclosed there i know i will find a steel blade. It is my only friend now, everyone has deserted me but it has stayed. I enter the water alone but for my blade. The warmth of the water enters my soul. I return to my task leaving them to their joyful escapades and i continue to turn the water scarlet. My pain is my life and my life is my pain. The blade releases me from the torrent of emotions and pain that attacks my very soul, pain caused by the loneliness of rejection and the loneliness of never feeling real love. The biting of the blade to me is like a lovers kiss. So under the water i will remain until i breathe my last breath and as i am on my own, Noone will hear my screams