Isolated & Ignored...

[The Harlequin]

This is how I've been feeling for months now. I was in a relationship for 6 months only to find out they didn't care about me at all, and then he spent 2 hours blindly insulting me over MSN, being horrifically hypocritical ro the point where I broke down in tears.

How could someone I loved so much be so cruel? How could they mock me so heartlessly? It's nearly 2 weeks now and I still can't believe it...

It's not just him though, in the space of a week my band had fallen apart, my old drama friends no longer wanted to know me and I'd been dumped. At school my five mates are becoming more and more distant from me, and today I found out that one of my best friends ever told them all.

As a result I feel alone, and in order to stop myself from sinking into more of a nervous wreck I've become paranoid: I think that the whole year knows, and that the girls I like are turning their noses up at me because of me being bisexual. Why is sexuality such a big deal?! Why when sex is a fraction of what makes our lives?

Please help, I need to stop feeling like this, I'd be so grateful for any advice you can give...

Please help me (U)

[thepieman]

I'm sorry to hear about your time mate. I know part of what you're going through, I've had my heart crushed by a guy who turned out to be a lying, evil shit spreader. So big hugs to you :hug:

As for the rest, could you try talking to your bandmates? I'd be surprised if your sexuality is the real reason the band has split, so you could talk to them about it. The same goes for your drama mates, if you try to talk to them and be more open about your sexuality with them, they may understand. If they don't, then they're not worth it.

I really hope things start to get better for you. If you want to talk, you can PM me anytime.

[The Harlequin]

The band and my drama mates don't (as far as I know) have anything to do with my sexuality, but it's possible... The band wanted to go in a different musical direction and I was doing all the writing, so talking to them isn't going to change their minds. They're all in the year below me and I think they just wanted the four of them as a group of mates... At least, that's clearly what the lead guitarist wanted, I'm not so sure that was the wish of all three.

As for the old drama friends, I'd said for a while that I was going to quit, and this really manipulative girl I know kept saying to me "No you won't. You aren't going to quit." And laughing me off, so that once I did quit the next time we met up she acted really wierd, and that had an effect on the whole day, it was awful

What should I do? Let myself be exposed or fight to keep the secret? I just don't know anymore, I want to get out of the claustraphobic cage of school life ~ but I can't quit Sixth Form, I'm in one of the best schools around and without A-Levels how can I hope to get to Uni or drama school...?

What do I do?