Why do you cut personally

[munchausen]

My school's decided they want to join in on the march the first self harm awareness day and as one of the few known self harmers, (only one teacher knows and he has sworn to silence.) in the school I've been asked if I could get some testimonials on the different reasons people self harm and so far I only have two from people I know IRL so I was wondering if anyone on here would help.

[Mr. Smithers]

Many people do it, for different reasons. Some people do it for attention, while others do it to release all the pain. Somewhat as something to put all their stress upon. Glad your school is doing that.

[Marcie]

My reasons vary, but usually it has something to do with wanting to get rid of/stuff away strong emotion like intense anger or depression. 'Cause it does make you feel better, though for a short time. It's like taking drugs, except to a much lesser degree.
Also, sometimes I cut just to see myself bleed.. When I feel numb (when I'm not really feeling anything, or I'm feeling [i]everything[i/] ) I might cut just to see that I can still feel something, that something being the pain of slicing/burning my arm.

I think that was a very good description, but it's the best I have at the moment..

[TigerLily]

To let go of shit in my head, and because at the time I think it's beautiful.
No reason can make it a good idea though.

[Amyxoxo]

Well I do it because it gives me the release from my life that I just need at the moment.
ALthough people storys are different we all suffer the same proble, well from what I have realised.
I think it is good that your school want to get involved, I wish mine did!

[Inconvenience]

i have gone through alot of bad times, really really hard times, was depressed till death, but never cut myself.

i think people do it to "heal" their pain. well i couldnt think it would heal me, so did never do it

[-Silence]

Control. For a long time I didnt have any control except for my cutting, so when I felt out of control cutting put me in control.

Release. When I was feeling down cutting provided a release.

[XxHaViiK]

It just provides a tension release from any problems going on in my life. Almost feels like a kind of "high". It just helps calm me down and helps me get a grasp on stressing things that are going on. It helps me feel like I have a little control, even though I don't.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I do it because it helps me cope with strong feelings, such as anger or when I'm really upset or saddened for whatever reason. It also helps me with stress.

[BeautifulDisaster]

There are a lot of threads on this.

I'll just copy my answer.

For me;

Abuse, neglect, bullying, fear, anger, anxiety, feeling broken inside, grief & loss, feeling depressed, feeling out of control, cutting on impulse, feeling numb, feeling disconnected, a need for release, an urge to see blood, an urge to see deep, wide wounds, gaping, needing to just get through the day, punishment, quite a lot of reasons, they vary, as you can see.

I've been self harming since I was 7, so the reasons have changed a lot over the years.

[laurawr]

My reasons changed. A few years ago, I cut because I was bullied in school and I felt completely worthless. I also cut when I ate too much. Generally it's just to relieve stress and to actually feel anything.

It also happens to be without reason. I just get the urge to cut and then I desperately want to see blood.

[Syvelocin]

I don't feel like anything is real, I'm living in an unreal world 99% of the time. To test if I'm really that numb is one. I'm one of those sadists and also gets a kick out of seeing a bleeding gash on my arm, whether I did it to myself or if it was an accident (it's a bigger kick if I did it). I have an obsession with blood. And for that high you get, I love the endorphins. Also, I'm an artsy person and some nights I just get bored and I scar my shoulder with a heart or something, and either just look at it each day or photograph them.

[BeautifulDisaster]

fade2black, you're not a sadist, I sometimes cut just to see the blood, or to see how deep I can go... you're not alone with that one, it doesn't mean you're a sadist though, just means you have a lot of troubles & you're struggling.

x

[munchausen]

I think the term is masochist however these are just words used by people to classify you, you are you end of story and as for the cutting designs into yourself I've done that too never photograph them though I'm a little too cautious for that.

[BeautifulDisaster]

I used to photograph my cuts, & I'd try & "beat" it next time I did it.
I felt so psychotic.
I also drew pictures in my own blood.
At this point, I was extremely out of control & very mentally unstable.
It's gotten better though. =)

[munchausen]

I used to photograph my cuts, & I'd try & "beat" it next time I did it.
I felt so psychotic.
I also drew pictures in my own blood.
At this point, I was extremely out of control & very mentally unstable.
It's gotten better though. =)

I've just started trying to "beat" my cuts and draw in my own blood. I've never been this bad before and it's only getting worse.

[deadpie]

There are a lot of threads on this.

I'll just copy my answer.

For me;

Abuse, neglect, bullying, fear, anger, anxiety, feeling broken inside, grief & loss, feeling depressed, feeling out of control, cutting on impulse, feeling numb, feeling disconnected, a need for release, an urge to see blood, an urge to see deep, wide wounds, gaping, needing to just get through the day, punishment, quite a lot of reasons, they vary, as you can see.

I've been self harming since I was 7, so the reasons have changed a lot over the years.


My answer.

[BeautifulDisaster]

Well, I hope things start getting better for you.

When I was that severe, I had managed to cut a few veins... it's extremely dangerous & very frightening.

Please try and seek out help soon... I wouldn't want something to happen to you.

[Seeker94]

If you're still looking for reasons here are mind.

Bullied, raped, rejection, and well deppression in it self while out of those four only three still cause these and the one that doesnt is being raped....I finaly got over it but the other three just continue to grow worste and worste every day

[munchausen]

Well, I hope things start getting better for you.

When I was that severe, I had managed to cut a few veins... it's extremely dangerous & very frightening.

Please try and seek out help soon... I wouldn't want something to happen to you.

I know it's selfish of me but I don't want help. I'm fine with everything staying the way it is, my behavior scared me at first but I don't have anything else.

[BeautifulDisaster]

I totally get that, but please think about it at least...

[Nelson]

I cut when i fight with my dad

[munchausen]

I totally get that, but please think about it at least...

I don't know what to do, I know what I do is unhealthy and stupid and I need help but I don't want it. It's the last thing I could possibly want. This is all I know now, if I get help and stop this then what's left?..

[Malcolm Tucker]

Why do I cut?

To be honest I don't know...It's literally a matter of something I have to do now when I'm upset. Like last night, my dad went completely mental at me for something small, and it hurt so much that I ran upstairs and cried and cut...It made me calm for a while.

But the exact reason why, I don't know. It's hard to put a definition on. For the minute after that blade touches my skin, everything has gone away. Just for one minute. And I guess cutting makes me wonder what it'd be like to feel that forever. I want that so much.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

the pain, the suppresed emotions and feelings d sufferin. i hate myself and go numb to the point i cn luy in the pourn rain for hours nd feel nothing. the blade over my skin makes me feel happy and in control. at times i just cnt deal wit life and the cutting makes me so happy

[BeautifulDisaster]

Damian, I know it feels like that's all you've ever known, but I promise you, you're still gonna be you, self harm is just a PART of you, it doesn't make you who you are... you'll still be yourself, just someone who copes in different ways than hurting themselves...

*cuddles*

[Fiction]

I self-harm because i deserve it.

[screamtobeheard]

Honestly, it depends on the day. Sometimes it's because I can't take being yelled at or lectured or criticized anymore. Sometimes I'm just not good enough for anything else, I have to know I'm good enough for something and it's almost reassuring. Sometimes I hate myself so much I deserve it. Sometimes there's so much going on in life I can't handle it. Sometimes I do it to myself because I can't to someone else. And sometimes I can't feel anything else. I like to feel in control of something because I don't feel like my life is mine anymore, or I'm scared.
So many reasons...

[munchausen]

I self-harm because i deserve it.

I already told you that's not true.

[munchausen]

Damian, I know it feels like that's all you've ever known, but I promise you, you're still gonna be you, self harm is just a PART of you, it doesn't make you who you are... you'll still be yourself, just someone who copes in different ways than hurting themselves...

*cuddles*

I'm not ready.

[BeautifulDisaster]

Alright, I'm not saying you are, I'm just saying to think about it.

[Watchfulness]

I believe people know that self-harm does not solve anything.

[BeautifulDisaster]

Erm, no one is saying it does solve anything, but that does not make it any less of an addiction, both emotionally and chemically, and sometimes self harm can actually prevent oneself from taking their life, it can be something that saves you from doing something so much more desperate, it did for me, still does at times.

[iceyfresh]

I dot know if this will help bit I did it because I was angry at the world

[EimmaTheDinosaur]

When i didcut, It was because of my Father leaving me and my mom. Long story :P

[ShinigamiMaiden]

I used to do it a while ago because I used to have really crappy friends and everybody who I cared about hated me :/ now things are diffrent. I have really awesome friends, and a supporting boyfriend. I still feel lonely sometimes though, and it helps me when my dad has a go at me for something I didn't do. I still try my best not to do it. You just have to stay strong, and believe you can go without it (:

[munchausen]

Alright, I'm not saying you are, I'm just saying to think about it.

I will think about it. Even if I did decide to get help though it would be a couple of months before I can actually get it.