Meltdown

[Obscene Eyedeas]

So finaly i hit rock bottom and attempted suicide last night. through the perceiverance of a few close friends im stil here. the problem being i stil want to die. life is unbearable and i have nothing. i just want to die.

y cant i be happy?

[OnlyByTheNight.]

so what, i am ''nothing'' to you?? :(

[Obscene Eyedeas]

No eva but ull realize soon that you dnt really love me. I love you though

[OnlyByTheNight.]

ha other way round there lovie!

[Obscene Eyedeas]

No its not. Im shit all im more worthless then anyone in the planet. I dont deserve happiness.

[Atonement]

Okay, I don't know you, but I'm going to say this in the most kind and respectful way possible.

You choose to feel the way you do.

Now, before you shout back, hear me out.

About two years ago, I hit this rock bottom of which you speak. I tried to kill myself, cut beyond belief and ended up in a hospital. Since then, I have realized that I wanted to feel down. Now, there are times where people are depressed, I was depressed, but I got help. I chose to ask for help. I can't control how I feel, and I can't control what people do in this world, but I can alter how I react to it. You may feel helpless, but you need to choose to get help. By not choosing to get help, you are choosing to feel this way. By not choosing to do something about it, you are choosing to harm yourself.

Make the choice, be happy.

[Amyxoxo]

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You choose to feel the way you do.




NO, NO, NO!!!
If she choses to feel that way then why would she feel the way she does?
I swear if I could chose weather to be happy all the time or be miseriable and depressed then it is really obvious what one I would choose!!!

[Atonement]

Appearently you didn't read all of my post with an open mind. She chooses to feel the way she does, directly or indirectly, we all do. We control our reactions, we may not control our emotions, but we control whether or not to get help or sit around and continue to feel the way we do. Its not a, "Oh, I feel like feeling shitty today." No no, but rather the choice to either seek guidance and help or to continue to go down a destructive path.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Actually im bi polar so there isnt much of a choice in it for me and i try and try and try and get better try and stop but i cant

[CuriousDestruction]

i don't know you either. but in some ways i agree with vindication. you may not choose to get depressed. but you choose whether to take the steps to get out of it. have you spoken to a counselor? therapist? they can talk to you about whatever it is you are going through. do your parents know? i agree with vindication on one thing completely. choose to get help. please.

[Asylum]

honey...i know how you feel... its not worth it... please... don't kill yourself.... you deserve your life, and happiness.. Laura, please seek a counsler, perhaps a friend to talk to, PM me you can talk to me, you don't need to seek this route... think of a life u'll miss... it can get better... everything dies eventaully, even pain, sadness, bad thigns in your life, they will al go away... nothing lasts forever... sounds to me like your deressed.... getting a psycologist/counsler can elp yuou with you depresison... note i'm not a doctor and cannot properly diagnos... so don't take my word for it... just please conslut someone... life is worht living...