Complications of the heart

[Resinflux]

So this is something I've never told anyone before, this isn't a am i gay, straight, or something in between thread. This is me expressing my confusion towards what I already know.

I label myself as gay, I like boys, I feel physically attracted to boys and I emotionally crave them. It's like an addiction I can't get enough attention from any guy I see that's cute. I can ..get sexually aroused by boys, I can even have sex with them. Being gay doesent bother me AT ALL.

Heres the confusing part..

I hate women, every little thing about them I despise with a hatred deeper then the atlantic, no its not a abusive hate its a mental type of hate. Like jealously or envy or some kind of confusing emotion that I can't really fathom. I have a lot of female friends. I don't have a problem talking to them hanging with them or anything. Physically I would never purposely touch a vagina or anything.

And the really confusing part, im not sure about any of it..I mean I KNOW i like guys but its like i have conflict of interest going on here and at the same time it feels completly wrong. Like I should spend the rest of my life with a woman (which I totally resent the idea) but i dont want that >.< Agsjb its so confusing does anyone else feel like this?

[Mr. Smithers]

I'm jealous of my sister, because of her boyfriend. He's totally my type, but I can't have him. But I love girls. Just because I'm not attracted to them, it doesn't mean that I have to hate them. Girls are so cool to be shopping with.

About your last issue, yes. There are many times where I feel like, I'm supposed to have the "Picket Fence Lifestyle", nice wife, nice kids, nice house. But I get over that by thinking to myself, would I be happy living like that, and the answer would be no.

[Resinflux]

:( I feel guilty about it sometimes, I dislike woman because of my childhood and the things that happened in it. I've never really had any males in my life so I'd like to think thats why I crave it so much..

It sucks when you see the guy you think would be totally perfect for you and hes like taken or is a axe murderer or something >.< -hugs-

[manlymadness]

Obvious dont go with your heart! And i understand about jelousy i feel lyk that when i see a cute guy dating a girl!!

[Resinflux]

:3 But its liek...my heart D:

[CuriousDestruction]

a lot of times growing up around something makes you dislike it when you get older. you know the saying, too much of a good thing? well, growing up around females may have made you a little, how do you say, "sick" of them.

[manlymadness]

i mean go with your heart!

[Resinflux]

XD Lol fail