So In your opinion Do you think Im Gay straight or bi after reading

[kogome999]

SO I am the child of a single mother father was never around
when I was like a toddler I ran around in her
heels. But when I went to public places I flirted with every woman I saw and sang to them( the singing is embarrassing).I got older and older and progressed along the same trail. In kindergarten I had a friend that I new my whole life one day I wasn't wearing underwear to school and she felt my penis. I met one of my friends that year who was male and I dont think I had a sexual attraction to him but I remember pondering about whether guys kissed I knew nothing of homosexuality. I remember at daycare I kissed a girl when we were playing a game I had taken advantage of her ignorance( dont worry we were the same age). In third grade my best friend died (the one who had felt my penis) that year we had played doctor and felt each others genitalia. when I was like 12 my friend said he wanted to try something I ended up blowing him didn't know exactly the seriousness of this and it happened a few more times. At this time I had a girl friend who I made out with every day and we felt each other up and stuff (no sex). Last year I actually knew about all the birds and bees crap and had another best friend boy this time. I ended up blowing him out of curiosity we masturbated in the same room, and one time we came close to having anal sex but his dick was too short, oh ya and this one time we almost 69d but I stopped because his dick was coming at my face and it weirded me out.(we are no longer friends because of other issues but he is in the closet and saying he hates gays when his favorite uncle is so). Your thinking ok this guy is gay but I still have had attractions to woman around this time and I still do. I am ok with being bisexual or gay but I would rather be straight and my family hates gays not hates but they would not love me the same. I have thought maybe when my friend died that impacted me, or the abandonment of my father made me have trouble comprehending male relationships. I thought I had this all under control but this year at school are new teacher who I am sure is gay because he always makes odd comments towards me. Anyways I thought I had a crush on him but then I thought it was possibly because of my father. Im 15 when I am masturbating I watch tv and whenever a girl comes on I keep going but when a guy shows I get weirded out .(Also when I blew those guys I didnt have an erection, also I am horrified by the Idea of the second penis it was that small)I need answers please help I dont want to be gay but the idea of anal seems kind of alluring to try but so does vaginal to keep what do I do I do think girls are attractive. Also when Im masturbating when Im building up I think of random stuff if a guy comes up I get weirded out and start thinking of hot girls I know and boom. What do I do also sorry for such a long post
also my friends are mostly girls but most of the people at my school are they all read gay fanfic and stuff and kept saying stuff like you and said friend would be a cute couple at first I was disgusted then I considered this was last year with tiny penis. How do I know Im not just lying to myself should I try both and see which one I like more? I would rather spend a marriage with a woman but I really dont know if thats me or the way I was raised. so after reading this in your opinion do you think Im Bisexual heterosexual or homosexual (this is for anyone that has read my post) Just post your honest opinion please

[Serenity]

Here's my reaction:

a) Paragraphs are essential in a post of this length. No one wants to read a block of text. Also essential are PUNCTUATION and INTELLIGENTLY FORMED SENTENCES. It's extremely difficult to follow your train of thought.

b) Your sexuality is by no means WHATSOEVER a matter of other people's opinions. That is something that you alone can figure out.

c) I imagine you're so anxious for an answer because you, like most teens, are worried about self identity and are confused about expectations and whatnot but the truth is, even if you decide you're gay or bi now it's very possible that a few years down the line you'll realize you're straight, or vice versa.

d) You're so focused on just sex. Regardless of sexuality, if you're aroused sexual activities will feel good. But you're missing out on the entire, and very important, aspect of emotion. Who are you attracted to? Who do you want to have a relationship with?

In summary: Stop obsessing over sexuality. It's extraordinarily common for people to experiment and it's probably even more common to feel confused about who you are. But the fact of the matter is it's probably going to take you a while to figure out just who that is, not the short and probably superficial answers of a bunch of teens on an internet forum who don't even know you. And even if you do figure out your sexuality sometime soon, you're FIFTEEN YEARS OLD and you are absolutely fixated on sex. Do you know where you're going to college? Do you know where you want to live? What do you want to do with your life? How are you doing in school? How's your social life? There is an infinitely long list of things that you SHOULD be worrying about and sex is absolutely not there.

Now don't get me wrong, I know how you're feeling and I understand that the likelihood of you just suddenly not worrying about your sexuality anymore is pretty much zero but take it into account. It's not an issue you can solve immediately and if you throw sex in there it just adds completely unnecessary stress and drama. Spare yourself and enjoy life as much as you can.

[CuriousDestruction]

... you already had this posted elsewhere...

[ChaoticHarmony]

my honest opinion? here:
your confused, ur anxious, and you need to calm down, and stop freakin out.

i pretty much agree with Serenity (bout the punctuation to...my eyes hurt..lol. but thats not the point). u gotta calm down and just think logically. just because you blew a couple guys doesnt make you gay, like you said, it was curiosity and honestly it was most likey hormones.

ur fifteen dude. u have all the time in the world to figure out exactly who u are. i figured out i was bi at 15, yeah, but not everyone knows they are bi/gay/straight at 12 ya kno? u do what feels right to you, whether its going out with a girl, or messin around with guys. just dont be scared of who u really are. all its gonna do is freak you out even more and you'll panic...and nothing good can come of that.

oh, and even if u are gay, i seriously doubt ur family will love you less. if anything they are gonna be shocked and it might take a while for them to get used to it. i would just tell the person you trust the most and go from there. dont do a big announcement..it could mess things up. and just remember: they still love you the same. your still the same person, they just know one more thing about you.

good luck figuring everything out. if you need anymore help feel free to pm me :)

[beedubs]

dont double post