what the hell am i doing?

[1_21Guns]

i was just thinking (and practically talking to myself) about situations that could happen with my family (long story, most of you have probably seen posts about it lieing around) when i started pulling out my blade from its hiding place, i had it in my hand then realised what i was doing.
i don't even know why i posted this, guess i'm kinda freaked. i wasn't even thinking. i was just about to hack into my arm for something that hasn't even happened.
argh, this is messed up.

[munchausen]

My dad went nuts last night and for the first time in 3 years I held a blade to my wrist before thinking how stupid it was, I wasn't thinking either. I think the reason I didn't go through with it last night because I didn't have enough sleeves to hide my arms.

[CuriousDestruction]

i'm sorry, we all do stupid things without thinking. the difference here is that you stopped yourself, which is good. you have my MSN and you know you can always PM me.

[Asylum]

hey.. the important thing is u guys didn't cut.... and congrats... it takes a lot.. u guys can PM me if u need me

[Amyxoxo]

Mabie it shows how much you need it, doing it effortlesly.
Should you talk to someone about it? xx