The world is playing a crule joke on me

[quackoman]

So here is just one of my many odd relationship problems.(how i have acquired so many without ever being in a committed relationship is beyond me).

About a year ago my cousin, Tara, Came to visit our grandparents over the summer she had to stay with us a few days though. Anyways my cousin thinks that i would be a perfect match for one of her friends. I thought she was kidding, my mistake.

Before i go any farther you should know that i live in Las Vegas Nevada, and my cousin and her friend live in Las Vegas also, New Mexico, Ha ha ha =(

So Tara calls me about a month after she leaves NV. That was the first time that i talked to her friend, Heather. Now I knew that Tara was completely mental thinking that something like this was going to work, but thats just Tara. After having a few conversations with Heather i came to the conclusion that she also thought that a relationship between me and her was a plausible idea. We exchanged Phone calls for awhile but i knew that it was going no where, and that Heather thought it was. she sent me an email saying to ignore what she had wrote in her last email to me. I never got the first one. knowing that this was the right time I sent her an email that said

Heather

honestly i dont think that a long distance relationship is the best Idea. If you think about it, there are things you need in a relationship that i cant give you, and I cant feel tied down with someone i cant see on a regular basis. I hope that this was all in your first e-mail and that you can understand this.

sincerely

steven


and then she BRILLIENTLY sent me one that said


I think your right! Heather

notice the exclamation point. never did find out what was in her first email.


So that was all a year ago. Now my cousin, this is Tara remember now, and my aunt, cousin Joe and Joes Fiancé are coming back to visit my grandparents. Tara took it upon herself to tell me that she had been trying to get Heathers parents to let her come up her too. (what fun that would be). I told Tara in another email to stop all efforts to get heather to meet me. (i think Tara thinks that if me and Heather meet it will be some big romantic moment and Ill forget about the distance and sweep Heather off her feet and we'll live happily ever after. to that all i have to say is Bull S***) So Tara's like fine she wont come, and for once i was happy with these two girls.

Now just a couple days ago im playing of the phone and i hear my the phone ring. My dad picks it up and doesn't yell my name so i go back to my game. When he hangs up i ask him who called he said it was my aunt. I said, o ya their coming this weekend aren’t they. When i asked who had finnaly decided to come he answered, Well i think its Joe, Tara, Janet, Joes Fiancé, and they said that Tara was bringing a friend. O SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So now the girl that i had unintentionally led on and then dumped is coming to spent the night in my house and we will both be stuck together for three days in my grandma's house.(they live in Alamo NV. Not exactly the most popular spit town on the planet.)

Are there any comments to this or should i just hang myself right now. =)

[Fiending_the_freedom]

it wont be as bad as you think:P
it was a year ago, over the internet.
dont worry, if she tries anything just remind her that you're looking ofrward to become FRIENDS.

[ScotsGirl]

I agree with Tegan!
Just play it cool and laugh it off!

And stop thinking you did something wrong! From what you have said, you really havent! You both agreed that it was best not to make anything of it and until she tells you otherwise, I think you should jsut leave it at that.

I think that your cousin Tara is maybe a bit of a hopeless romantic, you could possibly have a word with her about it, but i doubt that will change anything :P Some people jsut cant help but try and match-make lol!

Anyway, I hope you have a good weekend! ;)
xxx

[mr_smite1]

Since it was a year ago you have to realise that you were younger then and you made mistakes (if thats what you call it) or just dont say anything and hope she dosent remember :P:P:P

[Glasgow]

It sounds like your worrying just a tad bit too much.. Just keep it cool, and ignore her if you want to. That's usually what i do

[RowanVer.3.0]

The world is playing a crule joke on me
Fixed- The world is a cruel joke

That's life =)

[mr_smite1]

good call.

[quackoman]

Well It's all over now. She came here and then left for Alemo. I followed three days later, Stayed for 7-8 hours and then left.
While she was here she was pretty quite. When they left i hadent even said 3 words to her, but when we went up to Alemo the story changed.

She was nice. I was happy and we got a little bit closer then we should have. Nothing happened, but we still got closer then we probably should have. Now my mother's all upset because she thinks we should have been a little more descreat. Now if your readdy for comody get this. You want to know who the most upset one in that house was. TARA my cousin. like she had the right to get mad. Well i guess it was fun, but i think we both know that it was just a flirt thing. Just to have fun while were together because we would never see eachother again.

So i guess in the end the jokes on me.

[quackoman]

well i need more help if anyone is still posting on this.

Heather seemes to want to keep our relationship going now. Even though she knows that is was the distance that stoped us last time. Know i know that this cant work. But it would just kill me to compleatly cut all contact with her (which is what would happen, we couldn't stay friends). I really loved her company. She just seems like the girl i've been waiting for. My love life has not been the best. But it seemes to me like if she only lived down the road everything would be PERFECT.

Sometimes i feel like im not really in love with her. I've spent alot of time just trying to figure out if I really know the emotions that i am feeling. Everyone says that kids try to pretend to be adults. That we think we know whats best, but we dont. I've never seen myself like that, but i've seen some kids that are. Latly There's been a battle inside me. I haddent even concider the possibility that i could be like one of those "Stupid" Kids. But It just popped in my mind one day and i haven't been able to shake the feeling ever sence.

Just do me a favore whoever reads this. Lay down in a dark room and think about the person you said "I love you" to and then just concider the possibility that you dont. Regardless of how you feel about that person, just suppose that you think your in love because you dont know what love really is.

And to anyone who acctually does this, you are the people i would be friends with and i thank you for stepping abouve the ordinary and not leaving me alone in this.

[mr_smite1]

wow!!! i suggest 2 do what ur heart tells you to.