kogome999
February 8th, 2010, 02:24 AM
SO I am the child of a single mother father was never around
when I was like a toddler I ran around in her
heels. But when I went to public places I flirted with every woman I saw and sang to them( the singing is embarrassing).I got older and older and progressed along the same trail. In kindergarten I had a friend that I new my whole life one day I wasn't wearing underwear to school and she felt my penis. I met one of my friends that year who was male and I dont think I had a sexual attraction to him but I remember pondering about whether guys kissed I knew nothing of homosexuality. I remember at daycare I kissed a girl when we were playing a game I had taken advantage of her ignorance( dont worry we were the same age). In third grade my best friend died (the one who had felt my penis) that year we had played doctor and felt each others genitalia. when I was like 12 my friend said he wanted to try something I ended up blowing him didn't know exactly the seriousness of this and it happened a few more times. At this time I had a girl friend who I made out with every day and we felt each other up and stuff (no sex). Last year I actually knew about all the birds and bees crap and had another best friend boy this time. I ended up blowing him out of curiosity we masturbated in the same room, and one time we came close to having anal sex but his dick was too short, oh ya and this one time we almost 69d but I stopped because his dick was coming at my face and it weirded me out.(we are no longer friends because of other issues but he is in the closet and saying he hates gays when his favorite uncle is so). Your thinking ok this guy is gay but I still have had attractions to woman around this time and I still do. I am ok with being bisexual or gay but I would rather be straight and my family hates gays not hates but they would not love me the same. I have thought maybe when my friend died that impacted me, or the abandonment of my father made me have trouble comprehending male relationships. I thought I had this all under control but this year at school are new teacher who I am sure is gay because he always makes odd comments towards me. Anyways I thought I had a crush on him but then I thought it was possibly because of my father. Im 15 when I am masturbating I watch tv and whenever a girl comes on I keep going but when a guy shows I get weirded out .(Also when I blew those guys I didnt have an erection, also I am horrified by the Idea of the second penis it was that small)I need answers please help:what::what::what: I dont want to be gay but the idea of anal seems kind of alluring to try but so does vaginal to keep what do I do I do think girls are attractive. Also when Im masturbating when Im building up I think of random stuff if a guy comes up I get weirded out and start thinking of hot girls I know and boom. What do I do also sorry for such a long post
when I was like a toddler I ran around in her
heels. But when I went to public places I flirted with every woman I saw and sang to them( the singing is embarrassing).I got older and older and progressed along the same trail. In kindergarten I had a friend that I new my whole life one day I wasn't wearing underwear to school and she felt my penis. I met one of my friends that year who was male and I dont think I had a sexual attraction to him but I remember pondering about whether guys kissed I knew nothing of homosexuality. I remember at daycare I kissed a girl when we were playing a game I had taken advantage of her ignorance( dont worry we were the same age). In third grade my best friend died (the one who had felt my penis) that year we had played doctor and felt each others genitalia. when I was like 12 my friend said he wanted to try something I ended up blowing him didn't know exactly the seriousness of this and it happened a few more times. At this time I had a girl friend who I made out with every day and we felt each other up and stuff (no sex). Last year I actually knew about all the birds and bees crap and had another best friend boy this time. I ended up blowing him out of curiosity we masturbated in the same room, and one time we came close to having anal sex but his dick was too short, oh ya and this one time we almost 69d but I stopped because his dick was coming at my face and it weirded me out.(we are no longer friends because of other issues but he is in the closet and saying he hates gays when his favorite uncle is so). Your thinking ok this guy is gay but I still have had attractions to woman around this time and I still do. I am ok with being bisexual or gay but I would rather be straight and my family hates gays not hates but they would not love me the same. I have thought maybe when my friend died that impacted me, or the abandonment of my father made me have trouble comprehending male relationships. I thought I had this all under control but this year at school are new teacher who I am sure is gay because he always makes odd comments towards me. Anyways I thought I had a crush on him but then I thought it was possibly because of my father. Im 15 when I am masturbating I watch tv and whenever a girl comes on I keep going but when a guy shows I get weirded out .(Also when I blew those guys I didnt have an erection, also I am horrified by the Idea of the second penis it was that small)I need answers please help:what::what::what: I dont want to be gay but the idea of anal seems kind of alluring to try but so does vaginal to keep what do I do I do think girls are attractive. Also when Im masturbating when Im building up I think of random stuff if a guy comes up I get weirded out and start thinking of hot girls I know and boom. What do I do also sorry for such a long post