ZombieCrunch
January 28th, 2010, 06:52 PM
Untill last year I only dated girls because Boys presented me with unnecessary stress and seemed to have issues with being Faithful. However, last march I started dating one of my male friends that I grew up with. He seems perfect and so caring but recently he's just been making me angry and Im not sure if its down to jealousy on my part, or if he really is just giving me grief.
I'l start from the top.
Im very akward when It comes to relationships because I completely and utterly submit to any form of treatment given to me. For the first few months it was fantastic and I really cant name a happier moment in my life. but then he started naming celebrities that he wanted to sleep with. . . .In casual conversations with me. I asked him not too and he said that he wouldn't but he still continues to do so even now. He watches porn up to twice a night even when Im there. One of my worst moments was when I was crying in pain on the other side of his bedroom with a migrane and period cramps ( Im on medication for them. . . . yes they are THAT painful ) whilst he sat in bed and masturbated over pornography. When he finished up and finally came over to me he seemed confused when I told him to leave me be if he was that bothered and then proceded to lie to me about the entire situation. After he eventually owned up, he promised to not try and bend the truth around me again.
Again, This still happens.
His frequent porn habit is becoming a problem . . . Mainly because I get overwhelmingly jealous. I've had eating habits in the past because I viewed my body as being hideously proportioned and whilst I know The women in these video's are pumped with plastic and other unmentionable substances it just GETS to me.
I've told him how I feel many times and every time, He promises to stop.
But his recent history opens up when a new tab opens on his laptop So Its pretty damn clear to see that He only ever stops for a day at most.
He never makes any effort to satisfy me during sex. Its always about him.
Even to the point where with me being on antibiotics, He would rather spend time masturbating to porn than wear a condom and satisfy us both ( somewhat anyway, I get the knowledge that I gave him that feeling and not some disgusting video on the net) I have had to adjust to many of his preferances ( one of which was a huge phobia of mine ) and when he reaches climax, thats it. He knows I have problems with masturbation ( It hurts . . . Yet another thing i get jelous about ) and that I only get aroused around him but he makes no effort to even try. I've never even come close to an orgasm.
No matter how much I try and express myself to him about things he either seems to completely ignore them or simplay forget after a day or so.
Is there anything I can do ?
I dont want to lose my relationship because Im so Inept at things and to jea:(lous for my own good . . .
I'l start from the top.
Im very akward when It comes to relationships because I completely and utterly submit to any form of treatment given to me. For the first few months it was fantastic and I really cant name a happier moment in my life. but then he started naming celebrities that he wanted to sleep with. . . .In casual conversations with me. I asked him not too and he said that he wouldn't but he still continues to do so even now. He watches porn up to twice a night even when Im there. One of my worst moments was when I was crying in pain on the other side of his bedroom with a migrane and period cramps ( Im on medication for them. . . . yes they are THAT painful ) whilst he sat in bed and masturbated over pornography. When he finished up and finally came over to me he seemed confused when I told him to leave me be if he was that bothered and then proceded to lie to me about the entire situation. After he eventually owned up, he promised to not try and bend the truth around me again.
Again, This still happens.
His frequent porn habit is becoming a problem . . . Mainly because I get overwhelmingly jealous. I've had eating habits in the past because I viewed my body as being hideously proportioned and whilst I know The women in these video's are pumped with plastic and other unmentionable substances it just GETS to me.
I've told him how I feel many times and every time, He promises to stop.
But his recent history opens up when a new tab opens on his laptop So Its pretty damn clear to see that He only ever stops for a day at most.
He never makes any effort to satisfy me during sex. Its always about him.
Even to the point where with me being on antibiotics, He would rather spend time masturbating to porn than wear a condom and satisfy us both ( somewhat anyway, I get the knowledge that I gave him that feeling and not some disgusting video on the net) I have had to adjust to many of his preferances ( one of which was a huge phobia of mine ) and when he reaches climax, thats it. He knows I have problems with masturbation ( It hurts . . . Yet another thing i get jelous about ) and that I only get aroused around him but he makes no effort to even try. I've never even come close to an orgasm.
No matter how much I try and express myself to him about things he either seems to completely ignore them or simplay forget after a day or so.
Is there anything I can do ?
I dont want to lose my relationship because Im so Inept at things and to jea:(lous for my own good . . .