now i have swung the other way

[Gumleaf]

i'm feeling so overwhelmed right now. for nearly a week now i have been feeling so isolated, so alone and so lost in myself. i have it reoccuring in my mind all the time right now that in the eyes of other people i have no purpose and that nobody, even most of my friends, wouldn't even notice or care if i disappeared off the end of the earth. i have it instilled in my head that most of my friends are fake and they don't really like me and just pretend to. for the last few weeks i have been dealing with this now, trying to not let these thoughts get to me but they won't go. i'm sick of this, i'm sick of my mind, i'm sick of the negative thinking.

[BeautifulDisaster]

I'd recommend seeing a professional.
Therapy could help with this.

[Mr. Smithers]

What happened Stephen? What made you upset? You just don't feel upset for no reason. At least you talked about it, and it's out. I'm sorry that your friends are fake to you. I can understand that.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Stephen come on hunny weve talked about this darling. and we wil for as long as you need it :hug3:

[BeautifulDisaster]

Disco, on the contrary, Depression and other mental health problems can cause you to feel depressed & low for no reason at all.

[CuriousDestruction]

depression creeps up on all of us. i'm sorry you feel isolated, i feel exactly the same way. sometimes i really wonder if my friends even care about me. but i know people care about you. Everyone here on VT cares about you and would certainly be upset if you vanished off the face of the earth. i hope you push through these negative feelings, and i know you can. :)

[Gumleaf]

thanks for the comments. i already have a therapist that i go to. we haven't really talked about this part of my depression, the insecurity part i mean yet. i guess its something i need to open up about. but these feelings won't go away no matter how much i try right now. right now i still believe that i'm as loved by my 'friends' as much as they would love stepping in dog crap. and the thought of that just makes me cry and cry and cry.

[CuriousDestruction]

thanks for the comments. i already have a therapist that i go to. we haven't really talked about this part of my depression, the insecurity part i mean yet. i guess its something i need to open up about. but these feelings won't go away no matter how much i try right now. right now i still believe that i'm as loved by my 'friends' as much as they would love stepping in dog crap. and the thought of that just makes me cry and cry and cry.

well you are wrong about not being loved. the people on this thread are here FOR YOU. i agree that if this is making you feel so horrible right now then please talk to your therapist about it. they really can help. they may not go away now, but they will go away sometime. please don't cry. PM me if you wanna talk k?

[zacset]

I've read alot of your replies to other people's problems and I have to say that I believe you are a friend worth having.

Obviously not everyone can deal with things the same way but I will tell you of what my plan is:

-I have felt this way about my friends for the past 2 years, since I came to High School. The only time I am involved in anything with them is if I effectively 'push' into it - I'm never invited.

I've felt so down about it for ages, I've spoken to my parents about it and they, along with me, recognise that I'm a decent guy... so my plan is just battle it out until I can leave school because I don't think my friends are anything more than superficial props.

Hope this has helped

[Gumleaf]

i'm feeling so overwhelmed right now. for nearly a week now i have been feeling so isolated, so alone and so lost in myself. i have it reoccuring in my mind all the time right now that in the eyes of other people i have no purpose and that nobody, even most of my friends, wouldn't even notice or care if i disappeared off the end of the earth. i have it instilled in my head that most of my friends are fake and they don't really like me and just pretend to. for the last few weeks i have been dealing with this now, trying to not let these thoughts get to me but they won't go. i'm sick of this, i'm sick of my mind, i'm sick of the negative thinking.

things aren't getting any better and i've been like this for 3 weeks now. i have no clue what to do or how to make myself better. in the last 3 weeks at my best i have accepted that some of my friends do care and like me, but at my worst i am convinced that nearly everyone really doesn't like me and the only reason the odd person talks to me is because they want something and don't really care or want to talk or chill with me at all. i can't get past this, i have tried, i don't know what to do now, how do these thoughts of insecurity get so caught up in my mind like this? grrrrrrrr :( :cry: