girlofconfusion
January 27th, 2010, 05:43 AM
I have gone through massive stages of sexual confusion, I still have no real defined sexual identity. I feel as if I should, but then I say that I don't need to label myself.. urgh I don't know.
I have recently fallen hard for my best friend, I never thought she would like me but then she does things and I feel as if she might, my feelings intensify but then she does something else that makes me think she doesn't, I am now sure that I have strong feelings for her, but would not risk our amazing friendship on the chance that she might like me. I have done this previously with a friend, it has taken us two years to get back to how we were, I couldn't go that long without my bestfriend.
Anyhoo back to my sexual confusion. I have no real strong desire for one sex over another, I go to identify as bisexual, but I'm not really sure.
I don't think anyone can really give me any sort of help, but I really just had to rant, I can't to my best friend becuase half of this is over her and although we openly talk about everything, I get worried that I would accidently tell her how I feel. (oh just so you know my best friend is gay, if that influences anything)
I have recently fallen hard for my best friend, I never thought she would like me but then she does things and I feel as if she might, my feelings intensify but then she does something else that makes me think she doesn't, I am now sure that I have strong feelings for her, but would not risk our amazing friendship on the chance that she might like me. I have done this previously with a friend, it has taken us two years to get back to how we were, I couldn't go that long without my bestfriend.
Anyhoo back to my sexual confusion. I have no real strong desire for one sex over another, I go to identify as bisexual, but I'm not really sure.
I don't think anyone can really give me any sort of help, but I really just had to rant, I can't to my best friend becuase half of this is over her and although we openly talk about everything, I get worried that I would accidently tell her how I feel. (oh just so you know my best friend is gay, if that influences anything)