I just lost...

[TAC1]

I just lost my best friend due to a sudden heart attack. We were at gym when he collapsed and wasnt breathing. I tried CPR and resuscitation to revive him until EMTs arrived. My gym teacher and nurse used an AED but he was not responded. When the EMTs arrived they pronounced him dead. I sat there crying like a baby and I still am.
I feel like my whole world has just collapsed....I feel like Im a failure and that I could have done something to save him. He was my best friend of 6 years and almost anything we did- we did it together.. I dont know what I want to do with myself. I don't want to talk with anyone nor do i want to see anyone.... But I just can't handle it!!!!!

[MysticalBurrito]

I'm so so sorry for your loss. That's a horrible thing to go through. If you need to talk you can PM me if you feel like it. :hug3:

[goneghost]

sorry for your loss mate
pm me if you need to
stay strong x :hug:

[CuriousDestruction]

i'm so sorry. i can only imagine what you are going through. i just lost my friend to cancer last year. you aren't a failure. sometimes these things happen, as horrible as they are. this isn't your fault. PM me if you want to talk.

[Sugaree]

Oh my God I am so sorry. With any death, whether it be a friend or family member, is hard to go through. I can understand your pain. If you want to PM me J, I'm here for you.

All the best.

[Mr. Smithers]

I am so sorry for the death of your best friend. I have a similar story, where we were at a party and a friend of mine accidentally died. So I can very much relate to your problem. Just remember that you did all that you could. The only way to move forward is to still keep him as a friend by spirit.

[Englishrose]

I'm so sorry for your lost. Losing a friend is a terrible thing to happen to anyone. The worst thing you can do is blame yourself. Believe me, I've been there myself. He wouldn't want you to blame yourself, you did everything you could. There was nothing more you could of done. Please don't blame yourself. Don't think of him as he was in death, but of what he was like in life, just think of all the good times when you were laughing, joking and having fun together. Do justice to his memory by remembering the good times with him. It doesn't hurt so much to remember the good times. The pain your feeling will never truly go away, there is always a part of you that will have those insecurities and questions and the feeling of loss, but you have to learn over time to live with it.

[TAC1]

Thanks guys. I know I have to move forward- but I just cant believe it. He was right there one minute and gone the next! And according to my parents- I have to go and see counsellor and I m just not in the mood to talk to anyone about it.

[karl]

I'm really sorry, please don't blame yourself, Karl

[Kaius]

Im so sorry to hear about your friend. I've been through the same thing a few years ago, my best friend of 8 years was killed by a hit and run driver in front of me. Dont blame yourself, there wasn't anything you could have done. If/when you feel ready to talk feel free to drop me a pm.

All the best

[Asylum]

i'm so sorry about your loss. you can PM me if you need to talk. it wasn't your fault he died, you did all you could mate. just remeber the good times with him. it may be good to see a counsler when you are ready.

[ItsMyTime2009]

oh, im so sorry!!!!! i would have just stood their shocked !!! You ain't a failure man!!! wish u lots of luck for future!!!!

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Im so sorry for your loss but the important thing to remember is that no matter how much it hurts or how hard it is you will have to move on. Your friend wouldnt want you to isolate yourself and acceptance will come with time when you can accept it. It is extremely hard believe me i know and you will need people to lean on people who will be there for you but its not impossible you just need to take the first step.

If you need to talk more about this you can pm me and once again i am so so sorry for your loss and while i know this wont make you feel better i hope it gives you some help in moving on like you deserve

[anime Freak]

May god bring peace to your soul.... how you feel i do not ever want to know... my best freind is like a brother to me...... dude PM me if you need to talk...... i feel so absolutly sorry for you.:miss:

[Giles]

Something similar happened to one of my cousins.. Pm me if you want to.

:hug:

[TAC1]

Hey thanks everyone...I think Im going to talk to my counselor tomorrow. As you guys said..I shouldnt isolate myself...Im going to live life- right as if he was with me...

[TAC1]

I spoke to a counselor today and it went well. I told her everything we did and even spoke about the small "crush" I had on him. Se told me I should never forget about him and let my memories live of him.
His funeral is on Monday so I have to see the counselor tomorrow, Saturday and Monday morning before the funeral.

[thrust of trust]

i am sorry about your friend man. i hope you are getting through this time with your counselor.your friend is in a better place watching over you and he loves you. so focus on the great times you had together and it'll give you peace.

[anime Freak]

i am glad you talked to your counseler and that it helped, but the hardest time will be the funeral, the final goodbye, remember never be ashamed to cry its better to do it know than later, if it is a religious ceremony sing your heart out and pray your heart out it will comfort you,

[ilovemyboyfriend]

Oh my dear heavens.
I am soo sorry soo very sorry sweetheart! :( I would be to if I were in your shoes. Please feel free to pm if you ever need someone to talk to.

[Aman21]

Im sorry to hear that,But dnt be hard on yourself u did wat you could do.try making new friends.I kno it was probably harder watching it happen.Just last year me and my cousin talked to someone he went to school with and 5-6 minutes later he had a wreck on his 4 wheeler and died.Feel free to pm me anytime

[Bassftw]

You arent a failure some things happen that we dont want to happen. I was hanging out with my 21 y/o cousin a year ago and then 2 days later i looked in the paper and see him in the obituary. pm me wanna talk