am i imagining it?

[Gumleaf]

this has been in my mind for ages, and i try hard to hold it at bay and tell myself i'm imagining it, but its got to me again lately. i keep on thinking that if i'm the one who makes contact with a particular friend all the time then they aren't really my friend or don't want to be my friend or only pretend to be my friend because my thinking is they only talk to me out of politeness and not because they want to. then this just gets re-affirmed in my head everytime this happens, whether i know its true or not. like when a friend suddenly calls me out of the blue and the happiness i feel then, until 10 seconds later when they ask me for something and i soon realise they didn't want to talk to me at all it was only because they had to. i'm so screwed up in the head, i know there are reasons why people don't start chats with me, but why is it so negative in my mind? i love my friends and the bottom line in my mind is that they don't love me much.

[malondar]

Aww man, I feel for ya, life can be mega confusing, i've gone through this before. Just gotta put yourself out there, try to make friends who are truely happy for you :D

I'd be more than happy to chat with ya :D just go to my profile and add me on msn or PM me :D

[obiwan94]

Yeah, I've got friends like that as well...and unfortunately there isnt much you can do about it. I doubt that they "dont" want to be friends with you. They probably just dont think about you as much as you think about them. You know your true friends are the ones that contact you as much as you contact them. I know it can be frustrating, talking to them about it might help and then hopefully you can get a straight answer from them so that you know where you stand. Good luck.

P.S. you're welcome to hit me up to chat it you want...like ryan said, info is on profile page.

[DayBreakArt]

You should find friends you're happy with. If you're having doubts every single time then there must be something wrong. Maybe they are youre friends but like said above, they dont think about you as much as you think about them. My friend had this problem. She kept going to this one friend but then the other friend kept turning her down. She got tired of it and started hanging out with me all the time. Then the other friend got jelous and started asking her to hang out. Now they're besties and Im barely friends with either. Maybe its just gonna be something like that

[Contra]

You feel like that because you like having friends, but not being the one who always starts the chats, that is a bit unsettling, when I do that, it makes me feel that the peron/people I'm talking to just want to get out of there.
But, in your case, I'm sure there is someone who goes to you and starts a chat, right?

[DrkZ90]

that happens to me all the time... is annoying, frustrating, depressing and fucked up...

I can't get mad at them, I can't say no when they need me, yet I always end up feeling so lonely when they do talk to me (because it's always just because they need something from me)...

I would advise against talking to them up front about the issue... in my case, it just left me feeling worse getting just laughs and a "whatever" for answer...

Although it hasn't really worked for me, I would say try getting some new friends, without losing the ones you currently have (if you feel just like me, you don't really want them to go away)