so annoyed and fed up

[Asylum]

you guys probably feel the same way... but i'm tired and fed up with my scars... like seeing them is sort of trigerous cuz its like hmm whats a few more scars? well not anymore... i'm jsut arghh right now.. i'm so sick of seeing them.. i just really want them gone, because everytime i see them i not only feel guilty, i feel bad, and well it sort of makes me want ot cut... i hate myself for what i do/did... and i really don't want the scars.. i know no one wants scars, but sometimes i do,... its weird... sometiems i feel like i deserve them.. but i'm really sick of them now... :( and i'm sick of having to hide thme... worried 100% of the time... if someone can see something... if someone will find out... arghh sorry for the rant

[DSV-Dan]

I feel the same way, I say i hate the scares, but then i drink then i get out of control and think i deserve them. For the past week i been really paranoid about people finding out. Its like a weird love, hate relationship with them.

[jess_undead]

Use lotions and stuff to try to covr them up, or wear sleeves.
People's reactions arent always bad though.
Maybe you need someone to find out so they can help you.

[Asylum]

i already do that though...
with my parents there reactions aren't great at all... thye make me feel worse about myself.. make fun of it...
lots of peopel know including my parents... i asked for help and got 3 weeks work with a phsycologist... until she didn't call for more appointments..... and that waz it...

[BeautifulDisaster]

It could take years for scars to go away, give it time.

Most if not all of mine will be permanent, they do trigger me & they do upset me, but they are a part of me. That's how I feel.

[Amyxoxo]

I'd never really thought of my scars as an immidite trigger yet the time i cut is when i have short sleaves on and can see them ....
Just have to try and ignore them use creams and stuff on them to make them go away or fade. Draw over them cover them up with out wearing sleaves.
Or just dont look at your arm. I dont think i really used to look at my arms much before i started cutting, one of my friends didnt realise what colour her vains were today (bless her lol)
~stay stong xx

[jess_undead]

Ask for more help? You could call your pyschologist.

[CuriousDestruction]

your scars will heal and fade over time, but they will always be a part of you.

[Asylum]

thanx guys... i guess i'll just have to accept them as a part of me... but my scars won't define who i am... just what i've been thru... and what i've overcome