live_love_learn
January 24th, 2010, 06:48 AM
hi guys im new on here but i just wanted to share my story. life was ok for me growing up, that is until 2 years ago when something happend and changed my life entirely.
2 days after my 16th birthday, I had a cardiac arrest during a P.E class at school. I was told i stopped breathing for quite a while and they nearly gave up on me until i started breathing again on the last shock from the Defribillator. i was taken into hospital and was put in an induced coma but miraculously, i recovered and woke up two days later without any brain damage at all and the doctors told me that i had an inherited condition. even though I felt really grateful to be given a second chance, the reality of it struck me and depression started to kick in as I started thinking about how I was "technically" dead and how it could happen again at anytime. since then my moods have been like a rollercoaster and at times i just felt like there was no purpose for me to live and i would jst go through my days kinda like a brain-dead zombie and i spent quite a few days crying about it, thinking about what had happend.
2 years on, i am on a medication and have a ICD so i am feeling a little bit safer but there are still days where i would jst feel completely helpless as there was nothing i could do to stop it. my mind is filled with constant worries for myself and the rest of my family but so far nothing else has happend yet which is hopefully a good sign. anyways like i said i'm new and i don't know if this was the right place to post this but yea... i just felt like i needed to share my experience...
2 days after my 16th birthday, I had a cardiac arrest during a P.E class at school. I was told i stopped breathing for quite a while and they nearly gave up on me until i started breathing again on the last shock from the Defribillator. i was taken into hospital and was put in an induced coma but miraculously, i recovered and woke up two days later without any brain damage at all and the doctors told me that i had an inherited condition. even though I felt really grateful to be given a second chance, the reality of it struck me and depression started to kick in as I started thinking about how I was "technically" dead and how it could happen again at anytime. since then my moods have been like a rollercoaster and at times i just felt like there was no purpose for me to live and i would jst go through my days kinda like a brain-dead zombie and i spent quite a few days crying about it, thinking about what had happend.
2 years on, i am on a medication and have a ICD so i am feeling a little bit safer but there are still days where i would jst feel completely helpless as there was nothing i could do to stop it. my mind is filled with constant worries for myself and the rest of my family but so far nothing else has happend yet which is hopefully a good sign. anyways like i said i'm new and i don't know if this was the right place to post this but yea... i just felt like i needed to share my experience...