i thought i waz getting better...

[Asylum]

i weigh about 111 lbs. i'm 16 i am 5"5, and well i look in the mirror, and i hate what i see... i know i need to exorcise more.. i do sit ups a lot... i'm afraid i'll go anoerxic again... i've been eating...sort of okish lately... but arghh.. i so want to weigh 98 lbs... that is sort of my desired weight.. yes i know... its not a good weight... the only way i can get there is starving and exersising, again not good... how do i stop myszelf from these thougths.... i dont' want to get like this again... even tho part of me does... a small part is woried.... i hopoe someone understands how i feel...its like i want help, but then i odnt' because i want to be thin... arghh... its lik a mind battle in my head...

[BeautifulDisaster]

I understand how that feels, but it isn't worth it.
Thin isn't worth your health, or your life.
In any way, shape or form.
Please reach out.

[DayBreakArt]

Feel good about what you see. 111 lb is a good weight. Models are scary skinny. People dont only make fun of obese people but scary skinny people too, remember this. And you need fat on your bones! You know it isnt healthy so youre part way there. The next step is to gain some self esteem by liking what you see in the mirror. Luck with everything. (:

[Mr. Smithers]

98 lbs is very slim. The weight that you are at is just fine. Like it's unhealthy to be overweight, being underweight is horrible too.

[Asylum]

i know it isn't worth it... i was anoerexic before... i'd eat barely 1 meal a day, and skip eating totally some days... wasn't good..
i lack confindence.... i hate what i see... when i look into the mirror i just hate it... i used to model for a small company in New York, and yes most are scary skiny. i hope one day i like what i see, but i don't think i ever will... between scars and seeing myself as fat, i odn't know if i can ever like the way i look... the more i look at myself the more i can see flaws.. thanx...
yes i know its bad to be underweight... i was practically underweight my whole life... like when i waz little i never ate, i was forced too... parents would threaten me to give me food thru needles, doctors would tell my mom to force feed me, i was never hungry, and well i was so bone thin that peopple would ask my parents whats wrong? is she sick? i was sickly thin then... i was like that for years... , and this was when i was little, i mean i didn't do it to be thin then, but whne i did start to finally eat after i got off the meds i was taking, i gained weight and i was 119 lbs and i hated the way i looked, so well... i'm back to hte whole not eating... well now i'm sort of in between the stages.....

[Amyxoxo]

No one will ever be absolutly perfect and no one will ever be totally happy with the way they look. Im affriad that is just how it is.
However the way that you look at your body and your weight is extreamly bad. You just have to get into your head that your not fat, your healthy and wouldnt you rather be that than dangerously thin?
I know that getting back into that struggle is very easliy done. But it will be better to get help now before you relapse totally.
Talk to someone like your parents or a good friend, they will be able to get you that help that you need.

[Beautiful Obsession]

I know its hard, and its not going to be easy, theres a part of you thats always going to want to stop eatingg, anorexia is a part of you, but its a part of your past, and you need to keep it there, you are thin, you dont need to lose weight, i know its hard to see, but 111 pounds is thin, very thin. It has to get hard before it gets better, iv learnt that, but it will get better, trust me. Just be strong, try and talk to someone you trust about how your feeling?? Feel free to PM me :) xx

[maddii-may]

im like you i am scared its going to happen again what i do is i ahve things from when i was in a box and when ever i feel like i need to wake myself up about it i go and have a look at the pictures and things and it makes me relize. i dont like the way i am i am eating luch and breakfast but i am still not eating propperly but dont do it again its not a good idea

[jess_undead]

You've got to keep trying to get better and stay healthy. It's not easy, but you'l feel better if you control your lifestlye.