its the same song and dance all over again...

[Asylum]

i tell my boyfriend wheneer i cut for the past few months... he pointed out to me yesterday every Wed, of each week night i am cutting.... now of course i have cut on other days.... but mostly its Wed... Why is it always on a Wed... and why is it almost routine like now.... i mean... i have the urge tonight... (Fridya..) arghh.... idk.. this is a pointless post.... i dont even know if what i said makes sense... does anyone els cut o a particular day....

[DSV-Dan]

Maybe since Wednesday is the middle of the week, your stressed the most then. I dont think i have a special day but i probably do it more on the weekend then anything.

[Amyxoxo]

^^^ Mabie but then wouldnt she cut on the end of the week when the stress is really bad?
Anyways ...
As you said its a routine now so you do it automatically.
Although I dont really cut on any particular day I do, do it a certian times. For me this is because its the only time i have to do it and also no one is about.
On wednesdays is there something different about it, like is someone not at home or do you do something different?

[DSV-Dan]

^ oh yea good point, i think your right about the day, there has to be something different.

[Holding On*]

I am the same,
I started all the sh etc, on 29th April. The wednesday.
Every time I have a REALLY bad night, it always seems to be a Wednesday! And normally towards the end of the month! :S it is weird...

[Rutherford The Brave]

Maybe you should stop cutting. He cares about you, yet you keep cutting. Sorry, but you wonder why he's upset with you.

[Asylum]

i know why he is upset, he is conserned... however no offense, but that makes things worse for me... cuz gthen i feel guilty and upset for makign him upset.. nothing is different on Wed... i know Mon-Wed are my buisiest days... maybe thats it.. idk.. and i'm trying too... seirously... like i have gotten rid of soo many sharp objects this month its not even funny... but i still find soemthign.. arghh... problem is i come accross it at the worst times.. when i'm not stable enough to handle them.. but i'm trying really hard now 3 days with the urge and haven't. i'm trying the whole becoming more reilgious and praying can save me thign this time... let's hope it works...

[Rutherford The Brave]

Praying and hoping won't do anything. Less words, more actions.

[Asylum]

well.... u'd be suprsied... it might... who knows.. well i'm not just doing that, i'm making sure there is nothign sharp in my room... i guess that means no more sewing for me :(

[jess_undead]

dont restrct yourself, just remove the negative connotations. try to not cut on a wednesday :) keep trying. good luck.

[Asylum]

thanx Jess

[jess_undead]

:)
if you ever want to talk, im here for you.

[munchausen]

I've noticed something simmilar, I cut mostly around 8:10pm wich is roughly the time I was phoned by Meghans parents, on the 28th of february, the day after my birthday.

[CuriousDestruction]

it probably is just a routine for you. if you break the routine, say you skip a wednesday. you might break the habit of cutting, or at least make it a little easier to quit if you want to.

[Asylum]

good news!!! this is the first Wed in months I haven't self harmed!! :) this makes me happy. i poured ice water on my head a couple of times and it stopped the urge :) yay!!!