My story I guess

[Dory]

I was 5 years old when my best friend's father raped me. He was very sweet to me, very gentle. But I always kinda knew what we were doing was wrong. He would touch me and make me touch him, he would kiss me, he would take naked pictures of me, and he used sex toys on me. It was almost like he hated my friend, he would beat her right infront of me, he would beat her to the point of almost killing her. But he would "make love" to me. He continued to rape and molest me until I was 9 and I was moving away. I felt guilty about leaving my friend there with him, I felt guilty about leaving him. I had mixed feelings. When I was 12 I found out that my friend had died and I had a pretty good idea as to how. But at the funeral her father begged me to sit next to him so I did. At 12 I was already pretty developed and he made sure to tell me that he noticed. After the funeral he managed to get me alone, and he began to touch me, he touched me everywhere and he said he wanted to go further, He needed to have me. But I told him my mom would notice, so he kissed me and told me that maybe one day we could be together. That was the last time I saw him. And I managed to put it behind me. But when I turned 15 I started having nightmares about what he did to me. Everynight I woke up crying and sweating. Just last month I built up the courage to tell my mom everything. And now I'm in trauma therapy. I hope one day I can stop blaming myself, and maybe get over the whole thing.

[TAC1]

Well its a good thing that you were able to bring up the courage to tell your mom everything. You should alert the police about your suspicion on your friend's death.

[thrust of trust]

Well its a good thing that you were able to bring up the courage to tell your mom everything. You should alert the police about your suspicion on your friend's death.

yup. i know the experience was traumatic but keep going to therapy and talk about it you will get it behind you soon. im sure you'll be okay.

[iamniokekun]

this sucks. I hate scum like him - you're brave. Personally, if i was there, i would have beat the living crap outta him.

[Beautiful Obsession]

Oh God. Thats horrible, glad you got the courage to tell you mum though, hopefully one day you wil be able to realise you have nothing to be ashamed of, you havnt done anything wrong here, he has, you will never forget about it, but you can move on.

And maybe you should goo to the police about it then tell them about how he use to beat ur friend up infront of you and you think that may have been how she died??
xx

[CuriousDestruction]

i'm so sorry that happened to you. please inform the police immediately. if you still live in louisiana then the statute of limitations on the rape has not expired and you can prosecute him for his actions. i also recommend seeing a counselor about this. they can really help you get past your nightmares. stay strong and PM me if you wanna talk :)

[munchausen]

I know how you feel, the thought "Maybe if I had resisted more he'd have let me go." constantly goes through my head. I constantly doubt myself thinking it was my fault that I somehow invited him to do it some days I see sense though and I accept that it wasn't my fault. If ever you need to talk just PM me hon.

[seansaurusrex]

God, I'm so sorry to hear that.

I've only been physically abused, and not much.
Try therapy out, and make sure he was reported.

[Eclipse]

That's horrible what he did. I'm glad you had the strength and courage to tell your mom. I know I could never do that. I wish you the best,(:

[Asylum]

i am so sorry this happened to you :( *huggs*
i'm so happy you told your mom and you are in therapy.
tell the police or your mom about your friends death.
this creep, needs to be locked up. what he did was wrong, sick, and no one wants it happening again to someone else.

[TakeMyHand]

Has he ever been under investigation for killing your friend (I know you don't know for a fact but it sounds obvious) and raping you? This is a disgusting man who should not be allowed to walk free, inform the police for both you and her and anyone else who may ever be hurt by him.