you know,

[haibekah]

i've never actually really considered suicide. until now, that is. i can't even describe how unhappy i am right now. every time i look at my arm it makes me want to puke. i've hit rock bottom, and i know it. i can't look anyone in the face. i feel like they're going to see through me. i can't eat, can't sleep. i don't even have the energy to be frustrated.

i just want to end it. i'm so sick of this shit. life only seems to be getting worse.

What's happening here?
I was once so alive and now I'm so full of dread and almost dead
Show me your wounded head that is lead to communion with the father
But where did he go?
His presence seems farther and farther away each day
but I'm trying so hard to steer his way
Yet still lonely and confused on this cold hard ground I lay

[Fiction]

I have been suicidal before. Althouhg i still self-harm and have trouble with eating and sleeping i am so glad that i am still here. If your at rock bottom then life can only get better. try to stay posotive and i know how hard this is. Concentrate on making your self better and not on how much you want to die. Don't let how you feel now decide your future. get your slef through this and make your self stronger and more prepared for the wonderful life you have ahead of you :)

xxxx

[haibekah]

i have been going through this for quite awhile now. it never gets better.

[Amyxoxo]

YOu just need to remember that things will only get better from here on in.
Suiside really isnt the answer and i think that if you feel like this then mabie go and see a counceler they will be able to help with the underlying problems :) xx

[Fiction]

If things are this bad then they can't get worse?
Look at it that way. it may take a while to get better but it will get better.

[Asylum]

honey, it can only get better... there is hope even in the most hopeless of situations. bgo talk to a councler

[BeautifulDisaster]

I have been attempting to kill myself since I was roughly 8 years old.
I've attempted dozens of times.
In a variety of ways.
Some very lethal & dangerous.
Trust me, I know how hard this can be, but it's not impossible to reach out for help & to get better from this.

I haven't tried to seriously kill myself since November-December time 2008.
That's pretty darn good for me considering how I was.
You can get better.
I still have suicidal thoughts but they are not going to just go away.
But you can learn to cope & maybe they'll go away one day... depends on what causes them & if your life can be changed to the point of no longer feeling like that.

It's extremely hard to kill yourself.
Why not use that strength on getting help & getting better?

Hard, but you need to put the effort in if you really want to get better.
If you just give up & are not going to be dedicated to getting better & not put the effort in, then it won't work.

Your choice.

Make the right one.

[haibekah]

thanks guys. i think i'll be okay. i'm like a computer. sometimes i crash and it takes awhile to re-boot. lmfao. thanks for the advice. i've started feeling better.