Fiction
January 17th, 2010, 03:16 PM
I burn myself. I have never told anyone. Yesterday my boyfriend noticed the marks on my arm. I tried to lie say that i didn't know how i got them but he knew. He seemed ok at the time. He hugged me and said i was an idiot. i could see he didn't understand it at all. He asked me to stop. He said he wanted me to stop and that he was worried about me. I promised that i would.
I never thought of my burning as something that i couldn't stop. i always thought that it was my choice but obviously not. Now i'm trying to stop i realise how addicted to it i am. He doesn't understadn this and think it really is as simple as just stopping. I really don't want this to break us up.
Now he knows i feel more depressed and even more guilty if i do what i usually do in that situation. i really want to stop but i don't know how. Any tips?
I never thought of my burning as something that i couldn't stop. i always thought that it was my choice but obviously not. Now i'm trying to stop i realise how addicted to it i am. He doesn't understadn this and think it really is as simple as just stopping. I really don't want this to break us up.
Now he knows i feel more depressed and even more guilty if i do what i usually do in that situation. i really want to stop but i don't know how. Any tips?