Numb

[Asylum]

does nayone else get numb? To the point in which they cna't feel anything. like not even a deep cut... does anyone else hear voices telling themthat the only way for the voices to stop is to go cut or kill youroself... plus hallucinate where you think things are coming at you to hurt you and you see things at the corner of your eye.... expereice paranoia plus an anxiety attack? this is how i am now... someone help me please deal with this :(

[jajaja]

This sounds serious. Have you discussed these things with your therapist? I can't really help you other than point you towards a pyschologist. Symptoms such as yours usually indicate a severe depression.

[Asylum]

she... left me.... never called back for another appointment :( she diagnosed me with sevre anxiety.... she knows i've heard voices before... my mom told her... but i denied it because my mother told me befor that if things don't get better i was goign to a mental instatution.... and i can't deal with that.... htat just created more unneccessary anxiety for me... like just the hought of being abanoned and alone away from people.... scares me.... i don't wnt a psycologist for thsis reason, because i'm not going totell her the truth if i'm going to be locked away so hwy pay for one?

[jajaja]

If that's what you need, then that's what you need. Your condition sounds very serious, and can easily turn suicidal by the sounds of it. You must be honest with your therapist, otherwise, you are right, it is pointless. But without being honest, you can never recover. Wouldn't it be worth a few months in intensive therapy if you were happy afterwards? Therapists aren't trying to hurt you. They are going to help you.

[Asylum]

yea... i've been suicidal before... i don't want to kill myself though... like i made a promise to myself.. i woulnd't... no.... because then parents make fun of me for it like they do already.... they made fun of me nad yelled at me for wanting help, and for the reason. it waz awufl made thigns worse... and no... like the idea of more hell from parents hurts me... a therapist would cause that..

[jajaja]

It is clear that you need help. Don't be afraid to ask for it. Your therapist can work with your parents on how they treat you, but you gotta let your therapist know that first. Your parents are the problem, not the therapist. They can help you overcome the negative influences in your life. But you must ask for and be open to help.

[Asylum]

i dont' have a therapist anymroe... she hasn't called in 3 weeks.... she is gone... :( but taht involves more pain from parents....

[jajaja]

Find a new one that you can be open with, then. It sounds like you weren't fully honest about your feelings with the old one anyways.

[Asylum]

how do i do wihtout getting parents involoved?

[Amyxoxo]

Try and find help online. I know that there are many online places that you can visit that will be able to help you.
For example childline. If you go onto their website they have an 1-2-1 talk online where you can talk to one of their councelers. I was very weary the first time as when you hear stories of the people who use it they may seem to be in a much worse sittuation than you but give it a go. The only way your parents are going to find out like that is if they searched your history or something but im sure you can delete it.

[Asylum]

ok thanx :D i'l ltry it

[mitchboii7]

Yeah, there are a lot of people that you can call.
Not just that one person.

[-Silence]

We cant help you, sure we can try but its never going to be enough. You need to learn how to help yourself. It sounds to me like you need to get yourself help by a psychologist. You pretty much need to let your parents know and deal with the reactions.

[Sapphire]

I'm with Heather on this. You need to get proper help and the only way to do that is by accepting help and seeing a psychologist.

[Fiction]

I;m sorry you feel that way, I have never felt like this. I burn myself when i feel numb, but i've never got to the point when even that doesn't help. If you've had a councelor before i'm sure you can get one again?

[Asylum]

well right now i'm seekign God to help me with my problems... i know it sounds crazy... but... maybe He can help. If not once i'm away from parents i'll get help... my parents gave me so much crap about seeing a pshcy the last time... however i'm not positive but they may be looking for one.... i'm not realy up for this because they will just hurt me wiht more comments about it... but i do know i need and want help. just not now... i figure try differet ways to deal right now... try to stop with will power and on own? maybe? idk... ahh i just really confused i guess and skrewd up :(

[Fiction]

I really do know that feeling. When your so confused but you don't want to find help. If your willpower is strong enough i'm sure that you CAN get over it. Stay strong and keep looking at whats good about your life.

Hope i helped :)

[Asylum]

Thank you Kitty :D

[Mental]

Not trying to scare you, but it sounds like you might have Paranoid Schitzophrenia. But you need to consult your doctor, etc. immediately.

Only they can tell you what you really have.

[Asylum]

oh boy.... let's hope not... ill consult someone soon....

[lillypad]

not getting enough sleep night after night causes illusions and your brain can play tricks on you; you need to sleep more; a few hours a night will only do harm-seriously. read for a half hour before you go to sleep like at 10:30.it sounds like you have formed a habit of not sleeping

[Asylum]

ah... maybe thats why.... wow 10:30 is really early for me but i'll try... yea... i usually go to bed around 2:30 am -3 am weekdays i wake up at 5 am....sometimes on weekneds i go to bed at 5 am. 6 am but mostly around 4:30 am... and sleep till 10... weekdays are brutal... sometiems i'll get like 1 hour or two... it doens't really affect me that much tho... only occasionally am i tired...

[munchausen]

Come to think of it I don't hear anything either unless I'm really sleep deprived. I think this might actually have something to do with it.

[DSV-Dan]

For the last month i been getting only a few hours each night, cant seem to fall asleep if my life depended on it..

[Asylum]

lets all try to get more sleep then and see if this works... i'm really praying you are right Mary...