I need to evacuate this world

[deadpie]

gdgdfgd

[2D]

Make life interesting, do stuff, go places, set goals and traditions that don't involve killing yourself.

I get depressed if there's no abnormalities and chaos in my life, so I have to do stuff and go places otherwise I get bored and depressed. In combination those are dangerous things.

Cheers.

[FieryRaven]

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[deadpie]

I have hobbies and i do try stuff to fill in the time, it just doesn't help. Talking to people about it like my family doesn't help, and when i go to my therapist, it only helps for like a day.

[2D]

Sounds like the only way you can get better is to help yourself. You can't visit a therapist every day, stuff doesn't work, and people don't work. So you're going to have to help yourself.

[ToRch]

I'm going to tell you what I tell every person I know who's suicidal or depressed, (Believe me, I know a few..) It's too early to give up on life. There's still another fifty, sixty maybe seventy years ahead of you that things will DEFINITELY get better during, and it's not like your alone. From the looks of it, people are really trying to help you. If you aren't willing to help yourself out, then you probably won't recover. Stop being lazy, stop complaining about how nothing interesting happens, and go out and fix it! The first step is to help yourself.

[1_21Guns]

First off, lifes never not worth living, it feels like it, but its not, because life is priceless. you can't buy one back once its gone, you only have one shot.
So what, nothings progressing at the moment, make it then. Why don't you go skating every day anymore? cba? no excuse. just get up and go for it whatever you feel like, b'cos chances are you'll feel better later.
the hallucinations will go away with time, its unlikely you'll be stuck with them forever.
you lost your childhood because of abuse, don't let it destroy your future too.
I don't have an entire happy day either, not once, because as always SOMETHING has to make it crash down. but hold on to those moments you are happy, live for them, for it is those which makes life good.
oh, and if you think i haven't got a clue what it feels like to attempt to kill yourself, i do. i've tried it 5 times now, in the space of 3 years. one of which was less than a month ago. if you don't want to, don't attempt it, yeah habits/rituals are hard to break, but its better to lose a ritual than your life.
It will get better in time, and if you wanna talk sometime, i'm here.