Not sure what to do

[Tonymaruso]

January 13 th was the anaversiry of my grandfathers death I wasn't sure how to handle the stress. I cut myself, for the first time I felt this sudden release of pain and anger,almost lime I was alive again. Not this depressed heap of my former self. Please give me any advise on the sittuation.


Anthony

[Amyxoxo]

Well self harming is very good at releasing stress ect. but ... It also has massive implications. For example;
When you want to go out, you have to cover up your arms and places where you cut. You dont have to but otherwise people will start to ask questions. This iscludes swimming and sun bathing ect.
When your older and you get over this you may still have scars on your body and they might never go away, reminding you each and every day about the position you placed yourself in and how you had a really bad way of coping.
If anyone finds out then you could be classed as an 'Emo' or a 'Cutter' or whatever but something like that.
I would hope that was enough to put you off doing it again but just think if your grandfather were here what he woud want. Im sure he would want you to be happy and want what is best for you. Stop doing this not for my sake, not for your sake but for your grandfathers sake.
xxx : )

[Tonymaruso]

I don't know what to do I think about how dissapointed he would be and it makes me just want to kill myself. I don't understand why life has to be this way.

[Amyxoxo]

But you can make it better by trying to stop doing it.
Its life, you dont know what is going to happen and that is sometimes the great mystery of it. He would be even more upset and disapointed if you killed yourself. :)_ xx

[Tonymaruso]

I spent the night in the hospital, I had to, I thought if I didn't I wouldn't be here ritenow.