Adios- something to think about, please read!

[DrkZ90]

I wanted to share this quotes from a music video I watched today on YouTube's VEVO... they appear along the video in Spanish, I made my best to translate them and put them together

"We are all born capable of taking our own lives"
"A lot of people... think of suicide as a solution"
"They think there's no other way out"
"Every year, 1 million people choose this way"
"If you feel depressed... and you can't find any other way..."
"Seek help"
"Talk with someone"
"The solution exists, we are not alone"
"Don't give up, not even when you're beaten"
"Seek Help"
"Talk with someone"
"Every 40 seconds someone takes his own life"
"They don't want to be alone"
"They look for shelter... to express their fears and worries... To find themselves"
"How much more are you gonna stand/support?" / "How much longer will you hold on?"
"A lot less die in homicides each year"
"Those of us that love life, have a responsibility..."
"...Thou Shalt Love Thy Neighbor as Thyself..."
"...Those that have believed and practice the good deeds will have the gardens of the eternal mansion..." (quote from the Quran)
"...Even if I have enough faith to move mountains if I don't have love, I'm nothing..." (quote from The Bible)
"Do you know someone who's suffering?... Help him! don't leave him abandoned...Because others want to live"
"All terminal patients have a cure 5 seconds before their death" (quote from Almafuerte)

If you wanna watch the video is available here: http://www.youtube.com/user/DonOmarVEVO?feature=chclk#p/a/u/2/GEaVO8tpmmw as well as on VEVO's website... you can also buy it on iTunes and Zune...

[DrkZ90]

well, I made this post a couple of days ago, because I feel it's largely true what those sentences say... I didn't really expect for it to be kinda ignored the way it's been (although coming from me it should've been expected), so I might just as well recycle it for some vent to see if it helps...

I'm so fed up of crying every night, of not seeing any way out of this, of having every single attempt to make things better be crushed down, of getting so much hate and disrespect from everyone I know, of being everyone's laughing stick, of being treated as a tool, of being a punching bag,of being an outcast, of being alone, of being a failure...

I can't keep going like this, I simply can't, not any more... each day hurts more than the one before, each day is harder to get out of bed, in the end, what for? it's just gonna be worse... nobody needs or wants me near if they don't have to... for all my "friends" know and care, I could be dead and I doubt they wouldn't even notice...

I always do my best to help, I always do my best to be nice with everyone, to be as good as I can, to always smile, to be fun to be with... yet I'm always left alone, always left behind, ignored, treated like crap...

I just don't want to keep trying any more, it has just made it all worse... I don't want to feel this loneliness, this cold emptiness... I don't want to feel anything anymore, only thing keeping me alive is not having access to a gun or an open high enough place... strangling didn't really work, all it left me with was a headache and pain in the throat, and there's nowhere near to drawn myself...

[2D]

Jesus man, pull yourself together. Nothing is bad enough to make you want to commit suicide. Nothing. I don't care what has happened in your life, you're still alive, for some unknown reason. Why not find out. If you die, everything is over, that's it, everything is gone. Yes, times may be shitty right now, but if you die, they don't have a chance of getting better. You're 19, I would call that your prime. Don't take a pathetic way out. Rise above whatever is keeping you down and show people that you aren't a tool, loner, or punching bag. Don't fantasize about suicide like you are, don't try it, don't even let the thought enter your mind. You always have a choice, a choice to kill yourself and end everything right then and there, or a choice to continue, to make things get better.

Truth be told I've never been on teh brink of suicide, but I sure have thought about it a lot, and it is never the logical way to solve anything. It won't help anything, ever. Dying doesn't help, it kills everything you could have been. And who knows, you may be able to save someone who is in your position later in life.

Cheers.

[DrkZ90]

Nothing is bad enough to make you want to commit suicide. Nothing.

Maybe, but nothing has been good enough (or good at all) for me to want to stay alive anyway

I don't care what has happened in your life, you're still alive, for some unknown reason. Why not find out. If you die, everything is over, that's it, everything is gone. Yes, times may be shitty right now, but if you die, they don't have a chance of getting better. You're 19, I would call that your prime.

Why should I keep giving everything and everyone more chances to hurt and use me anymore? Nothing has changed in the last 5 years despite my best efforts to make everything better, what are the chances of it getting any better in the next 5 years?

And if the world does end in 2012, I'm not missing much anyway...

Don't take a pathetic way out. Rise above whatever is keeping you down and show people that you aren't a tool, loner, or punching bag.

How exactly am I supposed to do that?
Deny people my help? I feel bad enough when I honestly can't help someone, let alone doing it on purpose...
Force them to be with me? I'm not a loner because I want to, but because I have to...
Fight back? I'm not like that...

Don't fantasize about suicide like you are, don't try it, don't even let the thought enter your mind. You always have a choice, a choice to kill yourself and end everything right then and there, or a choice to continue, to make things get better.

Truth be told I've never been on teh brink of suicide, but I sure have thought about it a lot, and it is never the logical way to solve anything. It won't help anything, ever. Dying doesn't help, it kills everything you could have been. And who knows, you may be able to save someone who is in your position later in life.

I know it is ultimately a choice, although a circumstantial one... things won't get any better by themselves, and they sure haven't got any better despite my best effort...

I know is not the logical way out, I know it doesn't solve or help anything, I know it kills al the "mights", "could've" and "possibles"... but at the same time I got nothing to assure me anything is gonna get better...

I doubt I could save someone in my position later in life... look, not even my best efforts can help me, let alone help anyone else... I came here willing to help people out, and look how pathetic I can be, being the one needing help...

[2D]

Maybe, but nothing has been good enough (or good at all) for me to want to stay alive anyway

Then make something good. Nobody can tell you what that is or how to do it.


Why should I keep giving everything and everyone more chances to hurt and use me anymore? Nothing has changed in the last 5 years despite my best efforts to make everything better, what are the chances of it getting any better in the next 5 years?

You shouldn't.

The chances are actually quite good.

And if the world does end in 2012, I'm not missing much anyway...

Well aren't you Mr. Selfpity.

How exactly am I supposed to do that?
Deny people my help? I feel bad enough when I honestly can't help someone, let alone doing it on purpose...
Force them to be with me? I'm not a loner because I want to, but because I have to...
Fight back? I'm not like that...

I can't tell you how to do that, at some point you have to figure shit out on your own. No, don't deny people help, but help them in a way without opening yourself up to pain. Be somewhat emotionally detached.

Awww, you're a loner because you have to, well aren't you just a big fucking deal. And if you won't fight back, don't complain about getting kicked around like a soccer ball.

I know it is ultimately a choice, although a circumstantial one... things won't get any better by themselves, and they sure haven't got any better despite my best effort...

Circumstantial or not it's still the wrong one.

And about your best efforts. Well, if nothing goes right, go left. If something isn't working despite you putting every ounce of effort you have into it then it's not the right way to go about it.

I know is not the logical way out, I know it doesn't solve or help anything, I know it kills al the "mights", "could've" and "possibles"... but at the same time I got nothing to assure me anything is gonna get better...

Look at me, some complete stranger on the internet whose sole rule in life is to be selfish. And he's offering you help. I would say that is reason alone to take some hope in humanity.

I doubt I could save someone in my position later in life... look, not even my best efforts can help me, let alone help anyone else... I came here willing to help people out, and look how pathetic I can be, being the one needing help...

You doubt you could, but you don't know you couldn't.

Look man, needing help isn't pathetic or a weakness. Nobody can help everyone, and the people that save people do need help along the way.

If a medic is hit with a piece of shrapnel he can't help himself, but he can sure as hell fight with every last breath he has to stay alive so someone else can help him. Sometimes you need help, and sometime someone else needs help, it's all about being there to give the help.

[DrkZ90]

Then make something good. Nobody can tell you what that is or how to do it.

I've tried, it isn't like I sit and wait for everything to fix itself....


You shouldn't.
The chances are actually quite good.

I actually meant that in the "why should I keep living" way, since what I said is pretty much part of a normal day for me


Well aren't you Mr. Selfpity.

thanks, gotta love the name calling, specially if it was in a funny or derogative way, I'll guess it was in a funny way


I can't tell you how to do that, at some point you have to figure shit out on your own. No, don't deny people help, but help them in a way without opening yourself up to pain. Be somewhat emotionally detached.

Awww, you're a loner because you have to, well aren't you just a big fucking deal. And if you won't fight back, don't complain about getting kicked around like a soccer ball.

What do u mean by "emotionally detached"? all I care is for people to treat me as a friend, instead of a tool they only call when they really need...

Can't really make much sense from the first part of the second paragraph.. and from the last part, violence generates more violence unless someone stops it...


Look at me, some complete stranger on the internet whose sole rule in life is to be selfish. And he's offering you help. I would say that is reason alone to take some hope in humanity.

I haven't really lost "hope in humanity" as a whole, just on the one geographically-close to me, and yet again I've still have hope in them for the last 5+ years...


You doubt you could, but you don't know you couldn't.

Look man, needing help isn't pathetic or a weakness. Nobody can help everyone, and the people that save people do need help along the way.

If a medic is hit with a piece of shrapnel he can't help himself, but he can sure as hell fight with every last breath he has to stay alive so someone else can help him. Sometimes you need help, and sometime someone else needs help, it's all about being there to give the help.

I made a mistake, I made it sound generalized while it wasn't... ME needing help is pathetic, specially since I came here with hopes of helping people (and by the looks of it, I've failed miserably)

[2D]

Look, you need to get your head out of the sand and stop wallowing in self pity. You say you've lost hop in the people geographically close to you. Then move, do well in school, get a scholarship, and move elsewhere. Just do something. So far you haven't said what you've been doing to help yourself, helping can include any number of things that are beneficial to you. Find out what helps, and do that. And don't say nothing helps because that's a lie and you know it.

[Ryhanna]

Dude. Motormouth is right.

Look, stop sitting around feeling sorry for yourself and start ignoring what people say and do. Be carefree. If they're going to be lame enough to do that stuff then you have to be ballsy enough to stand up and let them know that what they're doing is WRONG.

Come on now, stop being so diffucult. Why is it that depressed people have to argue over why i's best to kill themselves. It's NOT. There are other, more rational ways of dealing with things and I've just told you the best one. Get OVER it. Ignore these people. don't listen to them and if they try to physically hurt you tell someone.

Please? I don't know you, but I'm sure your a cool guy. Whether you think so or not, theres good in everyone. Bullies think it's cool to pick on people - Thats why they have so many friends and there victims have none.

I broke free of this. I stood up - stopped taking their bullshit and asserted myself as a person. My friends all think I'm cool for just ignoring negative things. Only focusing on positives. And people at my school are slowly starting to embrace that. And now, on VT I'm going to try and get that same message across.

BE YOURSELF and don't listen to people who suck goats balls!