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BeautifulDisaster
January 9th, 2010, 12:10 PM
Hey, I'm new.

My name's Aimee, I'm 17, & I have been a Self Harmer since I was roughly 7.

I've done many Self Harming behaviors, when it was at it's worst, I was managing to cut into veins, & I went to hospital many times for multiple stitches. I still have the scars to this day, & I was told they'd be permanent.

I have also overdosed dozens of times, most of these were however, suicide attempts. I was overdosing every few weeks, & was in & out of hospital dozens of times within a few years.

I've done much less severe self harming, such as bruising myself, punching myself & walls, banging my head, pulling my hair, biting myself, scratching, & less severe cutting.

I haven't overdosed in quite a few months, & even then, it was a very minor OD, last year I was mostly only doing a few minor OD's, like... extremely minor, & before that, it had been since Nov-Dec 08 where I last did a relatively serious OD.

My last cut(which probably should have received stitches, but it wasn't majorly serious) was maybe a more than 2 or so months ago.

I don't self harm as much as I used to, it's definitely gotten a lot better.

If anyone wants to talk about their, or someone else's self harming, & need an understanding, listening ear(or eyes), feel free to PM me. :)

Thank you for reading.

Take care everyone, & have a good day.

Amyxoxo
January 9th, 2010, 01:52 PM
Well first of all, Welcome to VT :D
You musy have been going through a tough time, so thank you for letting others in.
I think that it is really good that you have tried to stop and i also think that you have been extreamly brave in doing so!
As you said there are defo others out there for your help and support as well. :)
Amy xx

BeautifulDisaster
January 9th, 2010, 02:13 PM
Hi there Amy, nice to meet you.

I appreciate your words, thank you very much.

Take care.

Mr. Smithers
January 9th, 2010, 02:19 PM
Hey BeautifulDiaster. I don't really have a few stories about cutting because I gave it up many years ago. But I had a girl who was really suicidal and she finally got over and got help not too long ago. Thanks for coming here to talk about your problems and I would be happy to talk to you. Like Amy said, that was very brave of you.

BeautifulDisaster
January 9th, 2010, 03:35 PM
Thank you very much, It's nice to meet you.

Well, I have been seeing CAMHS since I was 7.
&I still see them to this day.
I've only gotten increasingly worse over the years.
I've seen multiple professionals, but I'm now on medication for one severe problem of mine, so I'm hoping I'll get somewhere this time around.
&next year, I'll be referred to Adult Services, where I assume they'll be better being able to treat me.
Until then, I'll be seeing my Psychiatrist.

Amyxoxo
January 9th, 2010, 04:11 PM
Thank you very much, It's nice to meet you.

Well, I have been seeing CAMHS since I was 7.
&I still see them to this day.



You see CAMHS. My 'friend' went to see them and she said they really help. I was reffered to go to see them when i took a OD in hospital but i didnt want to go, so i didnt. Do you think it would be worth to look into going to see them? :) x

BeautifulDisaster
January 9th, 2010, 04:13 PM
Well, my experiences have been mostly bad, but that's just my experiences.

It depends on what area you're in, & what professional you'll be seeing, & how they are with their patients, & what needs need to be met with you.

I think it's worth a try at least.

Amyxoxo
January 9th, 2010, 04:17 PM
Ok, thank you :) x

BeautifulDisaster
January 9th, 2010, 09:55 PM
You're welcome.

Do let me know how it goes if you decide to give it a try.