I dunno what to do

[xrazor_tearsx]

Im going on holiday on Friday with my girlfriend, she knows about the self harm and stuff and she tries to help me. She's seen my scars and stuff. But one thing iv never been comfortable enough doing is being open about letting anyone see new cuts, not even doctors.

Im freaking out, I mean, she's bound to see, and as much as she's ok (as ok as someone can be) with knowing I do it, I cant help but think she'll freak out seeing actual cuts and stuff.

It may seem a stupid problem, but it's fucking with my head. She wants me to be open and share stuff with her, I just dont know if I can be THAT open about it. I dont know if she even knows what she's asking for by wanting me to be that open.

Like obviously, I live in long sleeves and stuff, but over the course of this holiday, there's bound to be times when I wont have the security of long sleeves. We've never had this much time together, I just dont know what to expect really.

The stress is fucking with my willpower, and now is not a good fucking time to crack.

[Amyxoxo]

Ok, well you may just have to bight the bullet and tell her before you go on holiday so she dosnt find out there and react badly. You just have to act natural, if you do she will as well. Im sure she is quite tense about the holiday but you just have to give it time. You can wear long sleaves as much as possiable but as you said when you do have to show them be 'cool' about it. And dont make it really obvious either.
Hope all goes well :) xx

[BuryYourFlame]

I suggest you talk to her beforehand, tell her about it so it won't come as much of a surprise.