Shum
January 6th, 2010, 02:07 AM
hey im not quite sure where to put this in because it includes alot of different subjects but... i hope this is alright to include the story coz its vital to ur answers...
im 15 and i have a boyfrined who lives over in england. i live in australia. this im fine with. and i love him sooooo damn much. i couldnt bare to ever lose him. because of the time zone differences, i can only really speak to him early in the morning, like 6am. which im fine with as well. but the problem is that my parents arent :/ which reali depresses me. they know im bi and that i have a bf and everything, but i dont think they are very cool with it, like they say that they accept the fact im bi... but they dont act like it. soon after they found out, they told me i was only allowwed on the comp one hour a day beacause i was getting "too obsessive" this reli started to cause problems and over the months our family bonds have been breaking to the point where neither of us want to live with eachother anymore and all of us cry at least 5 times a week over the subject. my dad has been getting seriously angry and there has been violent contact, both from me and from him. once again, it seems like for the hundredth time, ive been banned totally from the computer again (im on a friends comp), coz i went on for more than an hour, coz the rule is absolute B.S. much to my distress and probably my boyfriends as well. its so hard for me to live away from him. and he probably thinks that im ignoring him or sumthing and i am soo worried sumthing bad is going to happen between us now. i havent reli been treating my parents with enough respect lately, coz of the whole one hour thing and that just gets them more pissed off and its just going in a downwards spiral. :/ this problem cant be fixed by just respecting them anymore, it wont suddenly change, we are all very deep down hurt. they say ill be allowwed bak on when ive earned my right to be but im not sure how long thats going to be, or how long eddy (my bf) is going to stand this, for the wat seems hundredth time, before he gets totally fed up with me. im so afraid sumthing is going to happen. eddy and i have been planning our life together for a while now, im going to fly over to england to live with him at some point. and i reli cant wait. im going to love it soo much when the time comes when i leave this hell hole here, but yeh... my parents arent going to like it. i could never leave eddy. and i dont want him to leave me either. my feelings are just too strong and if sumthing ever did happen i would not be able to take it. my life would have no meaning and... well i hope u undersatnd what comes next. i cant live with out him.
so im sorry i put you through all that. and i dont really have a specific question for you... but i just want to know what you think of the situation and if u have any advice on how i could possibly solve this problem without anything bad happening to mine and my bf's relatinship.
thx very much. from sam
im 15 and i have a boyfrined who lives over in england. i live in australia. this im fine with. and i love him sooooo damn much. i couldnt bare to ever lose him. because of the time zone differences, i can only really speak to him early in the morning, like 6am. which im fine with as well. but the problem is that my parents arent :/ which reali depresses me. they know im bi and that i have a bf and everything, but i dont think they are very cool with it, like they say that they accept the fact im bi... but they dont act like it. soon after they found out, they told me i was only allowwed on the comp one hour a day beacause i was getting "too obsessive" this reli started to cause problems and over the months our family bonds have been breaking to the point where neither of us want to live with eachother anymore and all of us cry at least 5 times a week over the subject. my dad has been getting seriously angry and there has been violent contact, both from me and from him. once again, it seems like for the hundredth time, ive been banned totally from the computer again (im on a friends comp), coz i went on for more than an hour, coz the rule is absolute B.S. much to my distress and probably my boyfriends as well. its so hard for me to live away from him. and he probably thinks that im ignoring him or sumthing and i am soo worried sumthing bad is going to happen between us now. i havent reli been treating my parents with enough respect lately, coz of the whole one hour thing and that just gets them more pissed off and its just going in a downwards spiral. :/ this problem cant be fixed by just respecting them anymore, it wont suddenly change, we are all very deep down hurt. they say ill be allowwed bak on when ive earned my right to be but im not sure how long thats going to be, or how long eddy (my bf) is going to stand this, for the wat seems hundredth time, before he gets totally fed up with me. im so afraid sumthing is going to happen. eddy and i have been planning our life together for a while now, im going to fly over to england to live with him at some point. and i reli cant wait. im going to love it soo much when the time comes when i leave this hell hole here, but yeh... my parents arent going to like it. i could never leave eddy. and i dont want him to leave me either. my feelings are just too strong and if sumthing ever did happen i would not be able to take it. my life would have no meaning and... well i hope u undersatnd what comes next. i cant live with out him.
so im sorry i put you through all that. and i dont really have a specific question for you... but i just want to know what you think of the situation and if u have any advice on how i could possibly solve this problem without anything bad happening to mine and my bf's relatinship.
thx very much. from sam