Mzor203
January 5th, 2010, 01:05 AM
As some of you know, depression used to be something I struggled with. Something I struggled with and something I still struggle with today.
I know that what I have had to deal with is meager compared to the mental stress some people out there have had to deal with. So if my activity ends up falling away completely, I'd like to leave this out there, for all those people who are having troubles with depression.
I work at a bakery, and one of the perks of working at a local bakery in a small town is eventually beginning to recognize many faces, making friends with some of them, dreading the entrance of a certain few. There is one man who comes in, however, who is an inspiration. As troubled as he may seem, I think there's a lot some people could take from him.
By one way or another, he's been come to be known as "Spook". We don't refer to him as such in a mean way, certainly the opposite. However, it's almost a fitting name. He has had an incredibly troubled past... one that very few could claim to have.
Once upon a time, he was a lawyer. The career generally isn't an extremely dangerous one, but Spook was very unlucky with it. In one of the cases, someone got angry at him for battling against him in a case which he lost I don't know the details, but someone was jailed, and another someone wasn't very happy with that. He was so angry, in fact, that he took it upon himself to murder Spook's entire immediate family, leaving him to cope with such a devastating loss all by himself.
It was an event that has crippled him, so to speak. He can't react with anyone without being fidgety and nervous, he can't have anyone behind him without starting to get panicky. When he comes into our bakery every day to get his customary oatmeal raisin and peanut butter chocolate chip cookies, sometimes it will take him a couple times walking past the bakery, sometimes starting to go in but then backing out. If anyone comes in while he's in, he will give them a wide berth, and sometimes leave the store entirely.
Yet, even with all this trouble, he comes every day to get his cookies. Every day, he makes his daily walks around to do his various things, many of which put him in extremely uncomfortable situations. But he carries on.
And that's what I'd like you to take out of this. No matter what it is that's getting you down, no matter what it is that's causing you anxiety, depression... carry on. There is so much good in life, so much to live for, that living that life in darkness is horrible. When you finally come out of that pit and find a way to beat back those feelings of grief, it will be an eye-opener. So live for that time in the future... if nothing else.
That's what I have to say, and I'd like everyone to stop and give it a quick thought, if nothing else. And even though I may not be around here all that often, you still have ways to contact me. I've been through depression, and I have beaten it back for the most part, so I believe I can help.
...yeap, and that's all the sentimental stuff I have right now.
I know that what I have had to deal with is meager compared to the mental stress some people out there have had to deal with. So if my activity ends up falling away completely, I'd like to leave this out there, for all those people who are having troubles with depression.
I work at a bakery, and one of the perks of working at a local bakery in a small town is eventually beginning to recognize many faces, making friends with some of them, dreading the entrance of a certain few. There is one man who comes in, however, who is an inspiration. As troubled as he may seem, I think there's a lot some people could take from him.
By one way or another, he's been come to be known as "Spook". We don't refer to him as such in a mean way, certainly the opposite. However, it's almost a fitting name. He has had an incredibly troubled past... one that very few could claim to have.
Once upon a time, he was a lawyer. The career generally isn't an extremely dangerous one, but Spook was very unlucky with it. In one of the cases, someone got angry at him for battling against him in a case which he lost I don't know the details, but someone was jailed, and another someone wasn't very happy with that. He was so angry, in fact, that he took it upon himself to murder Spook's entire immediate family, leaving him to cope with such a devastating loss all by himself.
It was an event that has crippled him, so to speak. He can't react with anyone without being fidgety and nervous, he can't have anyone behind him without starting to get panicky. When he comes into our bakery every day to get his customary oatmeal raisin and peanut butter chocolate chip cookies, sometimes it will take him a couple times walking past the bakery, sometimes starting to go in but then backing out. If anyone comes in while he's in, he will give them a wide berth, and sometimes leave the store entirely.
Yet, even with all this trouble, he comes every day to get his cookies. Every day, he makes his daily walks around to do his various things, many of which put him in extremely uncomfortable situations. But he carries on.
And that's what I'd like you to take out of this. No matter what it is that's getting you down, no matter what it is that's causing you anxiety, depression... carry on. There is so much good in life, so much to live for, that living that life in darkness is horrible. When you finally come out of that pit and find a way to beat back those feelings of grief, it will be an eye-opener. So live for that time in the future... if nothing else.
That's what I have to say, and I'd like everyone to stop and give it a quick thought, if nothing else. And even though I may not be around here all that often, you still have ways to contact me. I've been through depression, and I have beaten it back for the most part, so I believe I can help.
...yeap, and that's all the sentimental stuff I have right now.