annie_elizabeth
January 4th, 2010, 08:52 PM
Well what is there to say about Annie...hmmm. I've been I'm in several crappy relationships and all ended badly. I just recently rededicated my life to God and I've never been happier. I used to cut myself and i have been clean for almost 3 months. I'm friendly for the most part but you don't want to get on my bad side because i can be really hateful sometimes but i guess everyone can be at some point. I've been told by most people that i give good relationship advice and sometimes i wish i could take my own advice i don't because I am stubborn. My papaw passed away February 22, 2009 and he was the closest thing to a father that I will ever have. He was not just my papaw but also my best friend and my hero and i miss him so much. At first his death made me question why God would do such a thing as to take away my papaw when he knew that i had no other father figure in my my life. It made me question why a God who is supposedly so loving a compassionate could have done such a thing! But in the long run it brought me closer to God and it made me realize that he didn't take away my papaw to hurt me but to take him out of his pain and suffering because it would only hurt me more to see him that way. My papaws death has been one of the hardest thing to get over especially during the Christmas Holidays. But i know that he was there with us. Maybe not in the flesh but in spirit he was. Me and my dad do not get along...i found out when i was in the 8th grade that he was cheating on my mom from at the time my 7 year old cousin. And when i asked him about it on the ride home...he lied to me. Straight to my face. H wasn't man enough to tell me that he was cheating on HIS wife and MY mother. We have never been close because he never has been a father to me, but this was the last straw for me. He has been dating this girl, this thing, this home wrecker for 3 years, living in her house for three years, treating her kids like his own for three years! Does he even acknowledge me...yeah when he has to but other than that he spends more time with her kids than he does his own daughter. Every time i even try to talk to him about it he goes off on me saying that he didn't come over to be lectured and I'm not lecturing him! I'm telling him that he should respect my feelings because whether he likes it or not hes stuck with me. He just doesn't seem to understand that he can't gain back all the time he could have spent with me. He doesn't understand that once its gone its gone. And honestly I want my dad in my life but it feels like he doesn't wants to be in mine at all. I just wish that he could understand where I'm coming from and listen to what i have to say before he automatically thinks that I'm lecturing him. But thats really the only drama in my life is my father...Other than that my life is pretty great at the moment and I'm starting the New Year off right. Well if you want to know more message me or whatever you do on here to get in touch with people ;) Well hope you enjoy reading this even if it does sound like alot of complaining :D
-Annie Elizabeth
-Annie Elizabeth