grrr....

[1_21Guns]

I thought they'd gone. I kept taking the sharpener I found myself using out from its hiding place to test myself. And I thought the urges had gone. To me it finally felt like a pencil sharpener, not a blade. But suddently I want to again. Yeah, random crap has happened over the past few weeks, but I never thought it would land me with wanting to do this again.
I know its wrong, I know I can't, but I still want to. I've tried every trick I know to take my mind off it, nothing works. 33 days of not cutting may just disappear, for no real reason. Nothings going to stop me... they wont go.
Nothing I tell myself, nothing I do. Just nothing.
I have PE tomorrow. I'd be out of my mind if I did. But suddenly I don't care anymore. I don't care for anyone, I don't care for myself. I don't care for anything. I just don't care.
I'm going to lose it again... I can't. But I will.

[xrazor_tearsx]

Try and stay strong, I know how hard it is to fight with that urge.

I know its easier said than done, but 33 days is so long!

[lalivre]

cutting is killing. killing who you are. stay strong. be cool. chew gum to keep your mind off of it.

[Mr. Smithers]

Yeah think of all those days you went threw. All that wrecked. Even though you said you tried everything, have you tried putting a rubber band on your wrist and just snapping that? I guess thats sort of a stress reliever.

[Asylum]

continue to fight to try and stay sober. 33 days is really really awesome :) good job. keep it up, don't go back to this... stay strong.

[Amyxoxo]

If you get through these days when you stop for good it will be more satisfying.

Just stay stong after a while these little cravings will go away.

And you should care about yourself, others do!!! :) xx

[Englishrose]

These days are the hardest. While I've never personally self harmed, one of my best friends for the past 15 years has been as self harmer, and when she had these urges me and the rest of her friends rallied around.

While it may be hard I think you need someone in person to talk to, to confide in, someone you can trust, say your best friend. My best friend used to just ring me up, ask me to come around and we would sit in her bedroom for hours just talking about what was going through her head, get it off her chest and then we'd go out, spend some quality time together.

There is unlikely anyone better to help you get through this than your best friend.