Maybe I'm not cut our for this "love" thing....

[Dead_User]

It's true. I feel like love is gonna rip me up from the inside any day now. To start things off, I'm in a rocky relationship with all of my friends, because they're outta nowhere acting up on me. Nowadays, I can tell NO ONE how I feel...thank goodness this forum is semi-anonymous. Anyways, this guy that's been my friend for life, Alan, has been acting even wierder, and since I've never in my life kissed anyone, he's offering to seal the deal. I feel like if everyone wants something out of me, but I don't have the mind OR the time to do majority of the things!! And the worst part is that today, I found my old 6th grade binder, and it had EVERYTHING I've drawn Nintendo-related, and everything Nintendo! It made me cry, because I feel like the kid inside me that likes to have fun went into a perma-coma, and some lost teen was thrown into the universe by God-knows-who, and people are expecting me to be some boy-genious. I've been putting my pursuit of passion in acting on hold for too many times nowadays too. I wanna become an actor, and everyone thinks it's a pipe dream! That I should be some super-president, or singer, like the familt legacy describes (longer story). And on top of it all, in the end, I can's stop thinking about this boy..a really REALLY special boy that means alot to me...but I'm afraid to put myself in the position where I spill my feelings out, and no one picks them up, leaving me to pick them up again, and to lock them up, throwing the key. AND, my whole family thinks I like this girl in Mexico that i liked for only a while. MOVE ON, family! She was a crush that became my FRIEND!! I'm not too clear on the whole "Flirt" thing, because I can't tell, but she DOES flirt sometimes, not most of the time though. (SIGH)....
I just needed to vent, poeple. If you read this, sorry if I was being rude, or annoying, and thank you for taking the time and hearing my personal thoughts on my current status in life...

~PSI Rockn'