Mr. Awesome
January 2nd, 2010, 11:46 PM
So tonight i went out with some friends from work. i like one of them but its not a giant secret. so basically, then night was trying to get me and her to get together. however they did not know i was not only in love with her but with another girl from college.
and then there all telling me what i should do and trying to figure out who i liked more it just made me frustrated. i went outside and hit a wall a few times (i think my hand is broken) after i seen her dancing with someone else. i went back in and told him to back the fuck off (and he did) we dancedfor a minute and then she went to the toilet and didnt come back and i felt rejected so i hit the wall again (instead of the other guy) . people were asking who i like more and then i said i just wanted to talk to the girl i like.
I told her i need to hear it from her if she liked me and she said she didnt know but if i couldnt make up my mind its not her fault and i should not stop her from having a good time ( which i agreed with her) and she went off again.
all this time i was in floods of tears. i dont know who to choose, i dont know what do to, i think my hand is broken. i know my heart is.
worst of all is i have to see this girl in work and its the one reason i never made a move because ive known and worked with her for 2 years and didnt want to make a move in case things became messed up between us, and i told the girl from college i didnt want to go out with her because we have to see eachother for 4 years incase we ever broke up.. i havnt seen the other girl since mid december since we broke for christmas holidays. ive not done anything with either of them.
im heart broken, scared and dont know what to do, and on top of that my depression is returning.
what do i do VT,
Mr. Awesome 18
and then there all telling me what i should do and trying to figure out who i liked more it just made me frustrated. i went outside and hit a wall a few times (i think my hand is broken) after i seen her dancing with someone else. i went back in and told him to back the fuck off (and he did) we dancedfor a minute and then she went to the toilet and didnt come back and i felt rejected so i hit the wall again (instead of the other guy) . people were asking who i like more and then i said i just wanted to talk to the girl i like.
I told her i need to hear it from her if she liked me and she said she didnt know but if i couldnt make up my mind its not her fault and i should not stop her from having a good time ( which i agreed with her) and she went off again.
all this time i was in floods of tears. i dont know who to choose, i dont know what do to, i think my hand is broken. i know my heart is.
worst of all is i have to see this girl in work and its the one reason i never made a move because ive known and worked with her for 2 years and didnt want to make a move in case things became messed up between us, and i told the girl from college i didnt want to go out with her because we have to see eachother for 4 years incase we ever broke up.. i havnt seen the other girl since mid december since we broke for christmas holidays. ive not done anything with either of them.
im heart broken, scared and dont know what to do, and on top of that my depression is returning.
what do i do VT,
Mr. Awesome 18