A Dream

[BlackBetty]

**You don't have to read this I just need to get it off my chest**

My second cousin (mine as well been my 1st) died of Lou Gherigs disease right after Thanksgiving. Me and my Mom was the main ones that took care of him. I had a dream ChristmasEve night that some lady at WalMart said that Ronnie deserved to die and that we didn't take good care of him. Then I started screaming at her and I woke up and I was screaming in my sleep and I had tears rolling out of my eyes. I was upset.

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Then I had a dream last nite about Ronnies mom, Sue. We was sitting at Ronnies house (it was after he died), and I seen Ronnie's Lincoln Town Car come up in the driveway. And my mom's old friend got out and she just looked at me. Then Sue said "Ronnie didn't like John, he thought he just got in the way". Then after that, Sue turned into my Aunt Robin. And I went blind and I started throwing shit and cussing her out.


Like I said, you don't have to read this or reply, I just need to get it off my chest and I don't want to tell my family because they will go crazy.

[foof1]

You might be feeling some guilt for his death because you were one of his main caregivers but there is no cure for Lou Gerigs disease(the last time I checked). So the main thing is that it is in no way your fault.

[BlackBetty]

You'r correct about there not being a cure for Lou Gerig's.

[Asylum]

its not your fault he died. I also agree you feel guilty for bieng his caregiver, and he died. his diseases was uncurable, you made him comfortable, and because of you and your mom, he was able to die peacfuly, and he wnas't alone