I want to do it....

[Gir1337]

end this

[KaelKaos]

I've know for awhile in my life that i've always been the bad one, the outcast. But still, I can't be that fucked up... I've posted here before so look at my old threads to see what i said, "this is a follow up of it". I just got in a fight with my dad and my sister and my sister who always wins the arguments wins... I was just laying on my bed thinking how fucked up my life is. I want to kill myself because I hate waking up knowing the next day is still going to be fucked up. The worst thing is I really want to believe in god... I pray every night but he never seems to come help me on the things I pray about...
Please help me, I just don't know what to do now.
Before I start, know this is not a reflection on what I believe, but what I think is best for you.

Have you been to church? Sitting there praying might not give you the spiritually connected feeling you're looking for. I'm sure you could find some religious youth group to join. It looks like religion is something you want and I think if you follow up on that you'll feel like you have a purpose in life, and maybe you'll feel better about yourself. And you know no matter how much you fight with your sister and father, they'll love you to the stars and back, and taking your life would ruin so many others, because you are loved.

[Rutherford The Brave]

I've know for awhile in my life that i've always been the bad one, the outcast. But still, I can't be that fucked up... I've posted here before so look at my old threads to see what i said, "this is a follow up of it". I just got in a fight with my dad and my sister and my sister who always wins the arguments wins... I was just laying on my bed thinking how fucked up my life is. I want to kill myself because I hate waking up knowing the next day is still going to be fucked up. The worst thing is I really want to believe in god... I pray every night but he never seems to come help me on the things I pray about...
Please help me, I just don't know what to do now.

Listen, Suicide is terrible and to be honest you are stupid for think about it. If your sad about being an outcast, well try to make some friends. If you do not want to fight with your family, do not put yourself in that sitaution. If you want to believe in god go to church. Seriously all these things can improve your life, stop waiting for everything to come for you and activily search for the answers.

[Gir1337]

I have a lot of friends. But I just don't like that they've been knowing each other for years and i've known them for.... 2 years...

[Rutherford The Brave]

I have a lot of friends. But I just don't like that they've been knowing each other for years and i've known them for.... 2 years...

What? So what if they know each other? Spend some time with them.

[godnose]

OK you're not "stupid". But suicide is such an awful thing. I promise you will find someone soon who you can confide in. I am so sorry you feel this way.

I had a very abusive brother all my life, and what got me through was just knowing one day I will beat him. One day I will be better than him. Just focus your energy, work hard and turn it into strength. I started working really hard at school and I am going to go to university and he will be left to rot here and it makes so happy to know that he will see that I have had the last laugh.